Where you gonna run to, your scared of yourself...
So I was thinking about Thanksgiving break today and I got wicked excited! But then I thought about the Thanksgiving game, and I realized that I might run into Kevin...and that makes my stomach hurt, but its not because i love him anymore....we've both changed, so he isn't the same person he was over the summer and im not eiether. No I'm afraid of the akwardness and what I would say. We are still supposedly friends and all, but I haven't really talked to him since I made a fool of myself to him. I'm going to let you all into my train of thought....i know ur wicked excited now! lol here it goes.....if i did see him @ the game and we did try and talk, he would try his best to make it comfortable b/c that is who kevin is.....but say i make a stupid comment...so then i thought "well what if i call him before Thanksgiving, just to say hello.....but what if he has a girlfriend/girl he is dating....if i was her I wouldn't want his ex girlfriend calling him...lol...or what if i look pathetic to him when we are talking on the phone and then he can go back to his friends or brother or whoever and be like "no joke my ex girlfriend just called me, it was so pathetic!".........mind you now that i really think about it kevins not like that at all.....hes nice....so basically im just a loser who thinks too much! okay well now i've made a pointless entry and everyone will think im crazy...but whatever it was kind of relieving for me!
*kevin used to tell me to "shutup ur thinking to much"......maybe i should do that!?! lol..........YEP PROBABLY