Do not suggest I quit; I won't have it.
OK, I have a lot to say, and as usual, I’m not sure how to say it. I don’t want to be mean or rude, but I’m at the end of my rope. Give me a little slack and give me a little credit. I’m a smart woman. I’m an adult. I’m a hard worker.
I have started my own business and it is hard. Really hard. I knew it wouldn’t be easy. It is painfully apparent why so many businesses fail in their early years. I could use advice and guidance and help in many many ways. I admit this. Do not be rude, do not be condescending, do not be snide, do not be negative. I have enough negativity and shut downs from the government, from the town, from the forest service, from the Summit Daily, from Meet Up, and the list goes on. Be caring and upbeat and supportive and POSITIVE. Offer your suggestions in a way that helps me grow. Tell me what I can do, what I can try, who I can reach out to. Don’t tell me what I can’t do, what I’m failing at, what I don’t do enough of.
It’s hard to stay positive when I work 40 hours a week at my day job and then work as many hours as I can mentally handle at growing my own business. It may not always seem it, but I am always working. I lie in bed at night struggling to sleep, despite exhaustion, because thoughts of how to grow my business and how to be successful are churning in my brain. And then I still try to have a personal life. I try and spend time with Clayton and Sunshine and Nollie and my friends and go out to dinner and go hiking and camping and travel and read and work out and play soccer and how many hours are there in a week? I think I ran out.
I am in debt. A lot of it. I have a new car, and now repair bills, and a business loan, and a mortgage. I brought it all upon myself. I take full responsibility for it. It is part of this process towards getting ahead in my life. I have made myself a payment plan and a budget, and it will get paid off, eventually, and I’m going to try not to worry about it. I need my car to get to work and to travel and get to trails each day. I need a roof over my head where I am allowed to have my dogs. I need certain supplies and insurance and licenses to operate a business. So I will pay for them a little at a time each month for the next 2 years. I’m on a 2 year plan for many things, and my finances are just one of them. I am not going compromise my values, I am not going to become a stripper or a drug dealer, or put my dogs up for adoption, or foreclose on my home or have my car repossessed, or sign my first born into slavery. I will stick to my plan and continue to work hard and be honest and be strong and be reliable and be efficient.
Do not ask me if I am giving up. Do not ask me if I am doing this again next summer. This is the most insulting thing I have heard lately. I am just getting started. I am just figuring things out. I haven’t even been open for 3 full months. Just because some of the things I have tried have not worked out doesn’t mean I should quit, close down, cut my losses. Fuck you. Who quits following their dreams that easily in such a short time. It’s downright insulting. Don’t suggest I quit. Don’t suggest I give up. Give me suggestions to continue, to grow, to strengthen. If you can’t do that, then keep your mouth shut. Other people’s lack of ambition and lack of drive does not have to slow me down. I will keep swimming with my head above water.
I have started my own business and it is hard. Really hard. I knew it wouldn’t be easy. It is painfully apparent why so many businesses fail in their early years. I could use advice and guidance and help in many many ways. I admit this. Do not be rude, do not be condescending, do not be snide, do not be negative. I have enough negativity and shut downs from the government, from the town, from the forest service, from the Summit Daily, from Meet Up, and the list goes on. Be caring and upbeat and supportive and POSITIVE. Offer your suggestions in a way that helps me grow. Tell me what I can do, what I can try, who I can reach out to. Don’t tell me what I can’t do, what I’m failing at, what I don’t do enough of.
It’s hard to stay positive when I work 40 hours a week at my day job and then work as many hours as I can mentally handle at growing my own business. It may not always seem it, but I am always working. I lie in bed at night struggling to sleep, despite exhaustion, because thoughts of how to grow my business and how to be successful are churning in my brain. And then I still try to have a personal life. I try and spend time with Clayton and Sunshine and Nollie and my friends and go out to dinner and go hiking and camping and travel and read and work out and play soccer and how many hours are there in a week? I think I ran out.
I am in debt. A lot of it. I have a new car, and now repair bills, and a business loan, and a mortgage. I brought it all upon myself. I take full responsibility for it. It is part of this process towards getting ahead in my life. I have made myself a payment plan and a budget, and it will get paid off, eventually, and I’m going to try not to worry about it. I need my car to get to work and to travel and get to trails each day. I need a roof over my head where I am allowed to have my dogs. I need certain supplies and insurance and licenses to operate a business. So I will pay for them a little at a time each month for the next 2 years. I’m on a 2 year plan for many things, and my finances are just one of them. I am not going compromise my values, I am not going to become a stripper or a drug dealer, or put my dogs up for adoption, or foreclose on my home or have my car repossessed, or sign my first born into slavery. I will stick to my plan and continue to work hard and be honest and be strong and be reliable and be efficient.
Do not ask me if I am giving up. Do not ask me if I am doing this again next summer. This is the most insulting thing I have heard lately. I am just getting started. I am just figuring things out. I haven’t even been open for 3 full months. Just because some of the things I have tried have not worked out doesn’t mean I should quit, close down, cut my losses. Fuck you. Who quits following their dreams that easily in such a short time. It’s downright insulting. Don’t suggest I quit. Don’t suggest I give up. Give me suggestions to continue, to grow, to strengthen. If you can’t do that, then keep your mouth shut. Other people’s lack of ambition and lack of drive does not have to slow me down. I will keep swimming with my head above water.