Probably not my smartest move
Have you ever had your heart and your head telling you two totally different things? One's saying go for it, it'll be fun and you'll learn a lot. The other is telling me that I know better and that I shouldn't pursue something that I know isn't going to be a good move for me in the end.
I know what I should do...I do. I just don't want to. Isn't it my turn in life to have a little fun? I think so. I have just never completely ignored that little voice inside before. I'm kind of scared of the outcome. Although, Lord knows when I listen to it things turn out horribly anyway. So maybe ignoring it is the key? I don't know. I'm just scared of either outcome.
I have SO much to offer. I just wish someone would realize that...instead of only what I can do for them.
UGH. This is so frustrating. I KNOW what I should do...I just don't want to. Can't I make the wrong decision one time? I'm just worried that making this one mistake...could lead to making a MUCH bigger one later on.
It sucks always doing the right thing...so we'll see if doing the wrong thing feels any better. Hmm.
I know what I should do...I do. I just don't want to. Isn't it my turn in life to have a little fun? I think so. I have just never completely ignored that little voice inside before. I'm kind of scared of the outcome. Although, Lord knows when I listen to it things turn out horribly anyway. So maybe ignoring it is the key? I don't know. I'm just scared of either outcome.
I have SO much to offer. I just wish someone would realize that...instead of only what I can do for them.
UGH. This is so frustrating. I KNOW what I should do...I just don't want to. Can't I make the wrong decision one time? I'm just worried that making this one mistake...could lead to making a MUCH bigger one later on.
It sucks always doing the right thing...so we'll see if doing the wrong thing feels any better. Hmm.