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hello, hello, hello all. i'm back from my mini vaction to nj. btw, the wedding was absolutely beautiful. jenn looked like an angel. it was so amazing, it almost made me want to get married....almost. anyway, jaime was very surprised to see me, hehe it worked. i also got to meet his mom and his grandmother. that was a special moment. they are some of the sweetest people i've ever met. all in all the trip wasn't bad, minor things could have been better, and i could have used more time to see some people, but i'm not complaining. but i'm glad to be back, and i'm more glad to be working. i've been online looking for other jobs, i found one that seems interesting, geico, selling insurance policies. i might be good at it. it's a lot of phone tactic, which i believe i have so i'll apply and see what happens. i also went looking at my car, only 10k. i can not wait til i have enough for that big down payment. oh man, beth on wheels, watch out ya'll. anyway, it's nice to have some time to myself, to kinda just figure out what i'm doing in my life, and question if i'm enjoying it? you know? i was praying the other morning and after i was done, i felt this over-powering feeling of being grateful for everything and everyone in my life. i truly am blessed to have all that i do, and being able to provide for myself. some people don't even get that priviledge. i dwell on the things i don't have in my life, rather than the things i do have. i do have a loving family, i do have wonderful friends, i have a roof over my head, food to eat, and a job to provide all that. maybe i need to learn it's not what we have, just that we have something. i'm thinking about all the things i like to do, and all the things i'm good at, if you guys can think of anything, let me know. i need to get the ball rolling with getting into school. i need a career, not a job. job stands for Just Over Broke, and i don't wanna be that. i want all those things on the list i made before i moved here. i wanna only rely on myself for anything i need. i'm gonna get to where i need to be, i just need to take one day at a time with everything in my life.