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I've been meaning to update lately but i haven't really had the time...that sucks...Basketball, english, and cultures have been ruining my life for like the past 3 months! I am so sick of school...i have so much fun w/ all my friends and seeing "certain people":):[ but the classes are overwhelming and i hate waking up so frickin early ESPECIALLY on Nightingale days>:O I have like the worst time management skills of like anyone i've ever known...next to Steven...he's probably rubbing off and me...now how is that my fault!?
Anyway, aside from that little factoid about hating school, this person i wuz talking about in my last entry is kinda starting to talk to me more...i just don't kno y i like him cause i kno how he is and how he acts around all girls but he makes me laugh and i don't kno...i like him...but i could never say who it is...some of u probably have hunches...and you're probably wrong...
My new favorite song is Obsession!! I just love it! Then Since You Been Gone...great songs...now i had so much to update on but lord forbid i remember any of it:p...O i kno...Pots and Steven are going to Prom together!!:) Despite what everyone thinks i AM happy they're going because before i'd always hate his dates and then end up realizing they're not that bad after all but now i already kno!!:) I luv Potsy!! The only time i get mad at people over him is when they come up to me and act like they're gonna talk to me and then ask me stuff about him...i mean seriously, how worthless would that make u feel? Yea i kno he's funny...i live with him! U don't have to tell me every little thing he does in his classes or just come up to me and be like "Oh my god, Beth Anne, your brother is sooo funny!" Yea ok i kno retard! I get so bitter at ppl...
O yea and i also realized i'm such a big hypocrite i disgust myself:[ I suck at life! I'll complain about other people complaining about everything!:( O and i kno something else that's been getting to me lately...that new student teacher for bio...i kno pretty much everyone in school that has her except maybe 10 people hate her and it really pisses me off! Hello!?? She's a fuckin student teacher! She's not gonna be a pro at teaching her first week or so...people are just out to get her and ask stupid ass questions in class and then are like "god she sucks at teaching, she doesn't kno anything" AHH! I really hate people!!
O yea then there's good old basketball!:) The seasons almost over...i'm so relieved of course but i'm a little sad...last year i barely talked to Kate and Dina, but this year at least i actually kno Nina and Jess! I'm really getting sick of the team by the end of the year but i think senior night might be a tad bit sad...tonight was a terrible terrible game...it's not even funny...i did so terrible, my parents never came so i waited like 20 minutes til they came to pick me up, and then Butch was up in the bleachers watching, almost undercover and all my thoughts and emotions from like months ago came back...:( this sucks...i am so depressed tonight...i think alot of it's stress...alot of it's guilt...and alot of it's not having a clue about things...i need another mental health day, i can feel it coming...:p
Tomorrow is Senior night for the boys...we're having a pep rally and the girls are gonna be in it...i get to escort/be escorted by Mikey B with Chelsea Jones! I think that could be kinda cool...and then i'm playing pep band at the game...OH! and i get to meet the infamous COREY GREEN!!!;) MUAHAHA! I really hope tomorrow is a better day...i can't really imagine it being any worse than tonight...i just hate myself sometimes...i need a night to just cry non-stop, but i hate waking up the next morning w/ down-syndrome:[...
I guess this happens to everyone...i really like to have people to talk to in my time of crisis so if any of u need someone to talk to i might actually be sensitive and caring right now...not a sarcastic bitch like i kno i always am:( I'm sorry...
Anyway, aside from that little factoid about hating school, this person i wuz talking about in my last entry is kinda starting to talk to me more...i just don't kno y i like him cause i kno how he is and how he acts around all girls but he makes me laugh and i don't kno...i like him...but i could never say who it is...some of u probably have hunches...and you're probably wrong...
My new favorite song is Obsession!! I just love it! Then Since You Been Gone...great songs...now i had so much to update on but lord forbid i remember any of it:p...O i kno...Pots and Steven are going to Prom together!!:) Despite what everyone thinks i AM happy they're going because before i'd always hate his dates and then end up realizing they're not that bad after all but now i already kno!!:) I luv Potsy!! The only time i get mad at people over him is when they come up to me and act like they're gonna talk to me and then ask me stuff about him...i mean seriously, how worthless would that make u feel? Yea i kno he's funny...i live with him! U don't have to tell me every little thing he does in his classes or just come up to me and be like "Oh my god, Beth Anne, your brother is sooo funny!" Yea ok i kno retard! I get so bitter at ppl...
O yea and i also realized i'm such a big hypocrite i disgust myself:[ I suck at life! I'll complain about other people complaining about everything!:( O and i kno something else that's been getting to me lately...that new student teacher for bio...i kno pretty much everyone in school that has her except maybe 10 people hate her and it really pisses me off! Hello!?? She's a fuckin student teacher! She's not gonna be a pro at teaching her first week or so...people are just out to get her and ask stupid ass questions in class and then are like "god she sucks at teaching, she doesn't kno anything" AHH! I really hate people!!
O yea then there's good old basketball!:) The seasons almost over...i'm so relieved of course but i'm a little sad...last year i barely talked to Kate and Dina, but this year at least i actually kno Nina and Jess! I'm really getting sick of the team by the end of the year but i think senior night might be a tad bit sad...tonight was a terrible terrible game...it's not even funny...i did so terrible, my parents never came so i waited like 20 minutes til they came to pick me up, and then Butch was up in the bleachers watching, almost undercover and all my thoughts and emotions from like months ago came back...:( this sucks...i am so depressed tonight...i think alot of it's stress...alot of it's guilt...and alot of it's not having a clue about things...i need another mental health day, i can feel it coming...:p
Tomorrow is Senior night for the boys...we're having a pep rally and the girls are gonna be in it...i get to escort/be escorted by Mikey B with Chelsea Jones! I think that could be kinda cool...and then i'm playing pep band at the game...OH! and i get to meet the infamous COREY GREEN!!!;) MUAHAHA! I really hope tomorrow is a better day...i can't really imagine it being any worse than tonight...i just hate myself sometimes...i need a night to just cry non-stop, but i hate waking up the next morning w/ down-syndrome:[...
I guess this happens to everyone...i really like to have people to talk to in my time of crisis so if any of u need someone to talk to i might actually be sensitive and caring right now...not a sarcastic bitch like i kno i always am:( I'm sorry...