You need some sleep- You cant go on like this

[bethica]

I dont know if you will ever read this.
i hope you do.

i didnt want to comment your entry because i dont know if i really want you to read this or not

I AM STILL HERE.
You dislike the fact that i say i want to hang out but i never do- the past two years of my life have been the 2 hardest years ive ever had to trudge through- i am sorry. i dont get out and i dont do things anymore

i am sorry.

you say that no one knows the real you. i believe it.

i believe that the old you is still in there.

FUCK INDIE, fuck dj'ing, fuck it all.
FUCK the hi tech gizmos. fuck the liquor.
fuck the god damned 'scene'

i know you are still in there.

i know that you want to be cutting edge and super hip. but the reason i liked you was because you were a dork and you knew it and everyone else did too. it was before 'dork' was cool.

come back. i miss having conversations with you that didnt center around how much better you are than the world.

you are awesome. you dont have to confirm it by being the first to listen to this band or that band and yadda yadda

i miss you. we miss you.