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things arent so good.
to start off...i'm sick. i've got that doped up achy, fevery-chilly, irritable, out of it, just plain shitty feeling.
i dont want to take too much medicine because i dont want to sleep through my alarm, and no matter how i feel i cant miss a single class.
in other news i feel really euphoric lately. when i close my eyes i can see who i am going to be. where i will be living. what my house will be like. what jobs i will juggle and what it will be like picking my kids up from daycare. i even have my wedding planned with no compromise. most importantly wheni open my eyes i know how it is i am going to get there.. and i dont really feel like having people in my life who will complicate my plans. the wedding part... thats up in the air due only to the fact that it means i have to count on someone else in my life to stand beside me in the whole i do-ness.
everything else only needs one person to carry it out. and thats fucking me.
i feel like maybe lately im too independent.
i have this over ambitious attitude that will not be jeopardized.
i guess now is the time to say to a few faces.. either fall in line or get the fuck out of my way.
to start off...i'm sick. i've got that doped up achy, fevery-chilly, irritable, out of it, just plain shitty feeling.
i dont want to take too much medicine because i dont want to sleep through my alarm, and no matter how i feel i cant miss a single class.
in other news i feel really euphoric lately. when i close my eyes i can see who i am going to be. where i will be living. what my house will be like. what jobs i will juggle and what it will be like picking my kids up from daycare. i even have my wedding planned with no compromise. most importantly wheni open my eyes i know how it is i am going to get there.. and i dont really feel like having people in my life who will complicate my plans. the wedding part... thats up in the air due only to the fact that it means i have to count on someone else in my life to stand beside me in the whole i do-ness.
everything else only needs one person to carry it out. and thats fucking me.
i feel like maybe lately im too independent.
i have this over ambitious attitude that will not be jeopardized.
i guess now is the time to say to a few faces.. either fall in line or get the fuck out of my way.