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great Saturday - another day spent doing various grad parties - this time of Antoney and Monica. conveniently both in Santa Ana on the same day! which was neat.
so Adam and Charlie came to my house and we all drove up to Antoney's thing, which was fun. Dannie gave all the seniors a cool DVD and it was AMAZING. I appreciated it so much! she worked so hard on it, and i identify alot with the intensity and dedication she puts into things. i just think its very admirable for someone her age and what she did meant alot. its weird being 'influential' to underclassmen. i'm not used to it, and im not even sure its 'influence' but i definitely know we've made an impact and THAT is cool. anyway, she's great and the DVD is really neat.
so at antoney's for a while it was like me and the guys all sitting at a table, which was sort of NEAT. ryan, samer, adam, charlie, two of antoney's friends (who thought we all were REALLY cool), and alot of other fun people. i mean, it was just such a great group of people and we had alot of fun just sitting there and talking and everything. antoney had a roast pig!! it was cool. i love how his family has traditions and everything.
we left early from antoneys to get to monica's thing not terribly late. we were sitting in this room and eventually more and more people were showing up. we had REALLY intense conversation it was great. about marriage and why we would/would not marry ryan and other guys and stuff like that. we talked about things that may normally seem awkward between any two people, but it wasn't - not for me, ryan, and charlie. which i think is really nice to be able to talk to people about anything and not feel weird/awkward.
and then we talked about dorm rooms, how to decorate them and everything. AND THEN the subject of making a movie came up and one is in the works. brainstorming with ryan, adam, and julien is really inspiring, exciting, and neat because they are all SO into what they do and love - so inspiring! you can really tell that something amazing is in the making, and the fact that they all specialize in certain areas and also care so much about their work is just so great.
i REALLY enjoyed tonight alot and the company and what we talked about. like the movie ryan wants to make is completely based upon the experience that we're all going through right now and it just hit me how meaningful and memorable this time in my life is. this transition period so crucial to how i develop into an adult and into the next chapter of my life. OH MAN! i get chills and excited when i think about the movie thing in terms of an inspiring movie and how much those move me (sorry im weird). and then to think that all this is actually happening right now.
its just alot to think about in one time. it reminds me alot of the moment ailia talked about that she had on the trampoline. like its so emotional and overwhelming that you do start to cry. very moving. i dunno. sorry.
another random thought is that i havent gotten home before midnight one night this week. my track record is like: 1, 3:30, 2, and 1 or something like that. its crazy.
*sigh* alot is on my mind. but im glad things are going so well and everything seems to be coming together. finality seems possible, which is weird because ive never seemed to experience finality before. but i think its like closure on something. i cant explain it i dont know what im saying. i think im just really comfortbale with how things are right now and that feels really good.
so Adam and Charlie came to my house and we all drove up to Antoney's thing, which was fun. Dannie gave all the seniors a cool DVD and it was AMAZING. I appreciated it so much! she worked so hard on it, and i identify alot with the intensity and dedication she puts into things. i just think its very admirable for someone her age and what she did meant alot. its weird being 'influential' to underclassmen. i'm not used to it, and im not even sure its 'influence' but i definitely know we've made an impact and THAT is cool. anyway, she's great and the DVD is really neat.
so at antoney's for a while it was like me and the guys all sitting at a table, which was sort of NEAT. ryan, samer, adam, charlie, two of antoney's friends (who thought we all were REALLY cool), and alot of other fun people. i mean, it was just such a great group of people and we had alot of fun just sitting there and talking and everything. antoney had a roast pig!! it was cool. i love how his family has traditions and everything.
we left early from antoneys to get to monica's thing not terribly late. we were sitting in this room and eventually more and more people were showing up. we had REALLY intense conversation it was great. about marriage and why we would/would not marry ryan and other guys and stuff like that. we talked about things that may normally seem awkward between any two people, but it wasn't - not for me, ryan, and charlie. which i think is really nice to be able to talk to people about anything and not feel weird/awkward.
and then we talked about dorm rooms, how to decorate them and everything. AND THEN the subject of making a movie came up and one is in the works. brainstorming with ryan, adam, and julien is really inspiring, exciting, and neat because they are all SO into what they do and love - so inspiring! you can really tell that something amazing is in the making, and the fact that they all specialize in certain areas and also care so much about their work is just so great.
i REALLY enjoyed tonight alot and the company and what we talked about. like the movie ryan wants to make is completely based upon the experience that we're all going through right now and it just hit me how meaningful and memorable this time in my life is. this transition period so crucial to how i develop into an adult and into the next chapter of my life. OH MAN! i get chills and excited when i think about the movie thing in terms of an inspiring movie and how much those move me (sorry im weird). and then to think that all this is actually happening right now.
its just alot to think about in one time. it reminds me alot of the moment ailia talked about that she had on the trampoline. like its so emotional and overwhelming that you do start to cry. very moving. i dunno. sorry.
another random thought is that i havent gotten home before midnight one night this week. my track record is like: 1, 3:30, 2, and 1 or something like that. its crazy.
*sigh* alot is on my mind. but im glad things are going so well and everything seems to be coming together. finality seems possible, which is weird because ive never seemed to experience finality before. but i think its like closure on something. i cant explain it i dont know what im saying. i think im just really comfortbale with how things are right now and that feels really good.