I have a headache.

[bethelgirl36]

La De Da Da Da doot doot. I am so tired, and my immune system is about to turn to junk. I am more out of it than usual. My grandmother died about 5 days ago. She was in a slight vegetative state but still knew who everyone was for her last two days. My aunt with my mothers permission told my grandma that she had made it to Christmas, so she finally let go. There didn't seem to be a chance she'd make it to Christmas for real, so that's what we did. There was talk about even giving her morphine to make the transition from life to death a little easier, luckily we didn't have to do that. She died on my cousins 19th birthday. The nursing home called us, so we were at the nursing home when she died. My mom and her one and only sister were in the room with her when she passed. My mom has held up well all things considering, lots of hugs are involved though. We did the best we could, and my grandma had an amazing support system around her. We got 4 months of knowing my grandma had lung cancer, so there was intense love. The worst of the disease lasted for only 4 days, and she was only incompetent for 2. She's in a better place. That is what gives us comfort. I think I may just spend new years with my family, I have spent a lot of time with them recently and it has been nice. My grandma always spent new years with us.

Marilyn J. Schardin




April 23, 1933- December 21, 2007