sick.
so im absurdly sick. like - cant get out of bed sick. i was talkin to kate online last nite and had to use abbreviations for all my words bc i could barely type. this freakin sucks. i hadn't eaten anything in 2 days other then half a can of tomato soup, chocolate and coffee. so that definitely didn't help. although today i ate an entire bottle of applesauce. =)
im starting to rethink a lot of changes i've made in my life recently. i think my whole idea of shutting people out of my life is what is making me sick. on top of 3 jobs plus grad school. i think i need to loose a job. of course i want it to be walgreens - but thats the only one that pays me good enough and has benefits and stock and blah blah blah. BUT - its the one i hate the most. i hate it more then anything ive ever done. its just so disgustingly unfulfilling and unrewarding. im miserable there. and what sucks most is im really good at it. they've already offered me tons of position ive turned down. i couldve finished school with my BS and been making 45 by now, 50 with the end of the year bonus. but that lifestyle is completely completely miserable. And who would I be helping? No one. my life would serve no purpose.
i need purpose. i need a reason to wake up in the morning. right now all i wake up to is either walgreens or going to run. i need to be happy again.
im starting to rethink a lot of changes i've made in my life recently. i think my whole idea of shutting people out of my life is what is making me sick. on top of 3 jobs plus grad school. i think i need to loose a job. of course i want it to be walgreens - but thats the only one that pays me good enough and has benefits and stock and blah blah blah. BUT - its the one i hate the most. i hate it more then anything ive ever done. its just so disgustingly unfulfilling and unrewarding. im miserable there. and what sucks most is im really good at it. they've already offered me tons of position ive turned down. i couldve finished school with my BS and been making 45 by now, 50 with the end of the year bonus. but that lifestyle is completely completely miserable. And who would I be helping? No one. my life would serve no purpose.
i need purpose. i need a reason to wake up in the morning. right now all i wake up to is either walgreens or going to run. i need to be happy again.