For those of you who yelled at me for my lack of updatin
Okay.. so i finally decided to update.. im gonna write in white b/c i feel like it
i dont know why? dont ask me.. i guess its how ive been feeling lately
i guess its b/c white symbolizes peace and comfort... who knows???
Well here it goes.. this is gonna be so random b/c i havent writtin a real journal in forever
I hate drivin w/ my dad in the car.. he yells at me to not make mistakes.. like ill do nothin wrong and he yells at me b/c i could have done somethin wrong... i hate it but fuck it.. i got my licence and its worth it
these past few weeks have been crazy.. last nite was the first nite ive stayed home in forever.. seriously
i went to the movies 3 diff times in like a week.... the first time i went w/ melanie and erin and andrew.. the second time i went w/ casey and scott and we met kelsey and dory and tabi and alicia there..... the ppl behind us got pissed b/c the girls were talkin... it was sorta funny.. casey drank tabi's drink which was sorta nasty specially since they dont know each other...then i went and saw batman w/ chelsea and kat... it was pretty good even though i had seen it once... after the batman movie we left and went to the grind.. i had somethin w/ chocoalte and caramel in it.. it was scrumptious.... then we left the grind and went to kats house where we sat around and looked at pics... then i went back home
then almost all my friends left me and so this week has been pretty borin b/c they are all in jacksonville for m-fuge... so basically its just me and chels here now... but shes sorta busy w/ some dude so really its just me myself and i...
im gettin the spitfire sometime this week whenever i get the trailer from mr joey... i cant wait to get it
me and chels figured out my problem... i cant let go of things.. simple as that
my baseball has sorta slowed down and ive had alot of time to do stuff.. but ive been so lazy and ive done nothing.. i havent done any of my summer readin... ive only run one time for XC this summer... ive done nothin.... im pissed that i havent had any bball in the past 2 weeks but right when i want to do somthin fri nite i have a tourney in SC... im seriously fuckin pissed b/c baseball always seems to screw up the best chance i have to have fun.... i dont even wanna play on this team b/c....
1) they suck
2) they jerseys suck and they look cheap and ugly
3) i hate losin and thats whats gonna happen
4) i dont wanna play on a losin team
5) ect.......
but newayz... im seriously pissed b/c i never get to do anything fun... ya kno what im talkin bout ;-)
soo theres alot of other stuff goin on but im not gonna write it b/c itd prolly piss some ppl off.. b/c of what i do and what i did... im seriously sorry but im fucked up right know and i dont know what the hell im thinkin or doin... you seriously want me to stay away from you
im tired of hearin how good and wonderful i am... why cant there be a fuckin reason for me bein single? like bein stupid or fat or borin or ugly or gay or too skinny or anything.. i dont know just somethin.... i hate that its not my fault b/c if it was i could blame it on myself or fix it and itd make it easier than basically always hearin.. "its me not you"
..... and i know what youll say.. you havent met the right person.. and i know... i get it.. i dont want the right person.. i want A person.. but everytime i have a chance to get that person i screw it up b/c theres someone else who i know will never like me back... but i just cant get over her... i dunno.. not that any of yall seriously give a fuck.. i mean none of yall really know me... you have no clue who i am... i dont even know who the fuck i am