hey
First journal entries seem to be pretty hyped up. I know that whatever I say in this journal will really never describe to you, the reader, the true meaning of my me-ness. I mean, there aren't really words to describe all that I am. For that, you'll have to meet me. For starters though, my name is Britt. Brittany....but well...Britt. I am pretty outgoing and extremely emotional. I am hypocritical and bitchy at times and I dont plan on changing those characteristics at all in the near future.
The reason I started this journal is because lately (as in 2-3 years), I have been dealing with nonstop 1-4 month binges then 1-4 months worth of restricting days. Do I want to recover? No. At the moment, I am exiting a bingefest. I am 5'3" and 163 lbs. Needless to say this binge/fast thing isnt going as planned, if you could say that. The thing I really hate about people perceptions of eating disorders is that people think I plan to binge for that long and then say "oh well after i binge for 60 days I can just fast for 60 days" It doesnt work like that. I dont plan to be a fatass but it happens. And then later, I look at myself and think "fuck". This is where the fasting comes in.
I suffer from anxiety disorder and I have never been diagnosed for any eating disorders but I really dont need a title to know I am fucked up. There are a lot of things in my lifethat have contributed to this horrific image of myself but I am not going to point fingers.
So in a nutshell, small nutshell. Like pistachio sized.
Thats me.
Friends are always welcome.
Britt
The reason I started this journal is because lately (as in 2-3 years), I have been dealing with nonstop 1-4 month binges then 1-4 months worth of restricting days. Do I want to recover? No. At the moment, I am exiting a bingefest. I am 5'3" and 163 lbs. Needless to say this binge/fast thing isnt going as planned, if you could say that. The thing I really hate about people perceptions of eating disorders is that people think I plan to binge for that long and then say "oh well after i binge for 60 days I can just fast for 60 days" It doesnt work like that. I dont plan to be a fatass but it happens. And then later, I look at myself and think "fuck". This is where the fasting comes in.
I suffer from anxiety disorder and I have never been diagnosed for any eating disorders but I really dont need a title to know I am fucked up. There are a lot of things in my lifethat have contributed to this horrific image of myself but I am not going to point fingers.
So in a nutshell, small nutshell. Like pistachio sized.
Thats me.
Friends are always welcome.
Britt