a whole lot of thoughts are going through my head ...
ok so things are just working fine .. but i found out
the most horrible news ever .. omg .. my baby is going away
to some college navy thing for like 2 years .. im so scared.
i dont want him to leave me .. i know i cant be with him now,
but to know that he is going to be even further away is going
to kill me.. i love him so much and this is just to hard to deal
with but he is worth it .. x's a million .. i would anything for
him and if i have to wait 2 years to be with him then .. damn it
im going to wait two years. i cant stand to not be with out him.
gosh i dont know when he leaves if he is leaving for sure or waht?
all i know is that his parents said that he has to go i think or
something like that .. : [[[ !! today has just been a very depressing
day. he was even crying on the phone while he was talking to me and i
was so ahh .. just writing about it makes me sick to my stomach. i cant
stand this .. why do things have to be this way. when im happy i cant
express how i feel b/c it has to be a secret all the time. i so tired of
it .. i just want come on out and tell the whole world but i dont want
anything bad to happen again. i love him dearly and i dont know what on
earth i would do if i didnt have in my life right now. well it think
dinner is about ready so i will go ahead and get off of here and think about
him so more and miss him more then ever when he leaves if he leaves.
well i love every single one of yall .. : ]
the most horrible news ever .. omg .. my baby is going away
to some college navy thing for like 2 years .. im so scared.
i dont want him to leave me .. i know i cant be with him now,
but to know that he is going to be even further away is going
to kill me.. i love him so much and this is just to hard to deal
with but he is worth it .. x's a million .. i would anything for
him and if i have to wait 2 years to be with him then .. damn it
im going to wait two years. i cant stand to not be with out him.
gosh i dont know when he leaves if he is leaving for sure or waht?
all i know is that his parents said that he has to go i think or
something like that .. : [[[ !! today has just been a very depressing
day. he was even crying on the phone while he was talking to me and i
was so ahh .. just writing about it makes me sick to my stomach. i cant
stand this .. why do things have to be this way. when im happy i cant
express how i feel b/c it has to be a secret all the time. i so tired of
it .. i just want come on out and tell the whole world but i dont want
anything bad to happen again. i love him dearly and i dont know what on
earth i would do if i didnt have in my life right now. well it think
dinner is about ready so i will go ahead and get off of here and think about
him so more and miss him more then ever when he leaves if he leaves.
well i love every single one of yall .. : ]