alright , so we dont talk - but im gonna tell you this anyway . you are not ALONE in this world . people are out there to help you , but sometimes you just have to go to them to help you . i know how you feel when you say you lost the love of your life . i know exactly how that is , the persont that i love the most - we are always arguing now . but the only thing that we can do is let God handle this . you may pray , but just because he hasnt answered your prayers - doesnt mean that he hasnt tried . there are ALOT of people that need to have their prayers answered also . so you cant rush him . he will answer it when he knows that both of you are ready for them to be answered . and if you dont end up being back together , then that means that God has someone else out there for you , that will make you happy . that will be there when you need them . that will love you just as much as you love them . that will be the best husband you can ever have . that will be the world's greatest father . its takes time , you need to live each day to the fullest - live like there's no tomorrow . hopefully i could of helped in someway , if not - im sorry , but at least i tried . smile & always keep your head held high :] - amber <3 .
amber its ok. i know that we dont talk that much and i thought since that day you gave me that glare in the bathroom that you just didnt like me from then on and i had no idea what you i did to you buts ok. ive tried not to be a burden to god if that makes any sense at b/c right now i have no idea what i am saying just trying to put words together and make some sorta sense. but i am not rushing him i know that there are other people out there that pray alot more than i do and need more help than i need and im trying to be patient but knowing me in not that patient. im sorry to say it im not. it makes me seem selfish the way i want him to help me out and me not thinking of others.i do think of others. i really do. i thinkof them before i think of me and people get me all wrong. they think of me the wrong way. they think im only thinking of myself. i know that he will answer them when he has time and i just need to be patient in waiting. we dont argue or anything well .. nvm about that but its my parents. its hard to long to explain. but the fact is that im not suppost to be with him i got my self in some trouble. im going to be dead when my dad gets home and i have no life right now. im so sick of being alone in this house with no friends or anything. its very upsetting. they are all having a good time and im tired of being stuck up in here. i do go to my friends but i just hate telling them b/c its the same shit over and over again i know tehy get tired of hearing it b/c i get tired of telling it and feelign this way. yes you helped amber. so dont think you ahvent. i just dont have trust for many people so sorry if i come off as a bit of a bitch. trying to keep my head high and think of the possiblitlies that come with time but its not looking good at all. -love always- beth
hopefully i could of helped in someway , if not - im sorry , but at least i tried .
smile & always keep your head held high :]
- amber <3 .
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