i am the queen of arkward situtations
This summer has just been a mess and when i try and clean up my act, I just find myself digging my hole even deeper or messer.
i have to stop my obession on this stupid boy named chris. he drives me nuts and i love it. he ignores me in public but then calls me in the middle of the night (but not as a booty call or anything...and not that he has anything to really say at all either). i love getting attention from him and it hurts when i dont get it. i shouldnt have to work to get a guys attention. Sarai has been trying to erase his number from my phone for a while and gets mad when i drive him home (well go out of my way to make sure he gets home....the boy is a lush). but my friend justin last night told me too, without me ever saying anything about chris to him, he said not to waste my time on that one, he wont calm down for anything.
so last night one of the boys in the group of peeps have been hanging out with hit one me. we were all at R.U.B.A. and dude asked me to come over and hang out. I didnt think it was a "hang out", i thought we were just friends. so he left and said he would call me. when i go to leave all of a sudden i am a taxi and I am taking justin home and ryan somewhere. and chris is following me and asking me where i am going, so i tell him. so now everyone thinks they are partying over dudes and i didnt mean to invite a party back to his house.
he is calling me all pissed and i fell bad cause i honestly didnt mean to do it. but i shake everyone off and i show up. But chris has pushed the situtation with dude and shows up. i have to admit, i am relived..not just cause i like him but i also then started to get the feeling about how the dude wanted to hang out.
he is nice and fun. not unattractive, but he just doesnt make my blood boil. chris does but he is a jerk. now i am not aloud to complain, i can get guys, i am just way picky. so after much hanging out chris leaves and dudes suckers me into staying longer. and then he tried to kiss me and i had to do the "i think you rule but i just want to be friends" you could cut the arkwardness with a knife. so now i have a weird situtation on my hands and i really think this dude is cool and i kick myself in the ass for not liking him that way....i am just messed up i believe.
i have to stop my obession on this stupid boy named chris. he drives me nuts and i love it. he ignores me in public but then calls me in the middle of the night (but not as a booty call or anything...and not that he has anything to really say at all either). i love getting attention from him and it hurts when i dont get it. i shouldnt have to work to get a guys attention. Sarai has been trying to erase his number from my phone for a while and gets mad when i drive him home (well go out of my way to make sure he gets home....the boy is a lush). but my friend justin last night told me too, without me ever saying anything about chris to him, he said not to waste my time on that one, he wont calm down for anything.
so last night one of the boys in the group of peeps have been hanging out with hit one me. we were all at R.U.B.A. and dude asked me to come over and hang out. I didnt think it was a "hang out", i thought we were just friends. so he left and said he would call me. when i go to leave all of a sudden i am a taxi and I am taking justin home and ryan somewhere. and chris is following me and asking me where i am going, so i tell him. so now everyone thinks they are partying over dudes and i didnt mean to invite a party back to his house.
he is calling me all pissed and i fell bad cause i honestly didnt mean to do it. but i shake everyone off and i show up. But chris has pushed the situtation with dude and shows up. i have to admit, i am relived..not just cause i like him but i also then started to get the feeling about how the dude wanted to hang out.
he is nice and fun. not unattractive, but he just doesnt make my blood boil. chris does but he is a jerk. now i am not aloud to complain, i can get guys, i am just way picky. so after much hanging out chris leaves and dudes suckers me into staying longer. and then he tried to kiss me and i had to do the "i think you rule but i just want to be friends" you could cut the arkwardness with a knife. so now i have a weird situtation on my hands and i really think this dude is cool and i kick myself in the ass for not liking him that way....i am just messed up i believe.