Career on the brain, when clearly it should be in my prayers.
tonight we had games and junk at the church. i really didnt do to much. i played cranium but thats a depressing story so i'll move on.
on the optimistic side, Justin told me he's been prayin for me about the direction of what i'm suposed to be doin with the rest of my life. he said he knew that i've been struggling with that. man that was a total blessing to hear. it was encouraging. to know that someone else is prayin about your struggles (when they just kinda of picked it up on their own) is awesome. sometimes i feel like i'm prayin out of selfishness, that i'll know wut i'm suposed to do when it happens and that i worry about it too much. that maybe it's not that big of a deal. or maybe that God has already given me the direction i'm suposed to go in and i'm not listening to Him. i think that is my biggest fear. not hearing God. or maybe selective hearing. sometimes i wish God would just pick up a plank of wood and write down my lifes story and then throw it at me so i would have somethin to go on. or atleast to make sure i'm paying attention to Him.
anyway, God is in control and He knows what's best so i just need to give eveything up to him. and He deffinitly put Justin there tonight to give me some encouragement. that was all God.
YOU ARE AMAZING!
...here's a good song
"You dance over me,
while I am unaware.
You sing all around,
though I never hear a sound.
Lord, I'm amazed by You.
Lord, I'm amazed by You.
Lord, I'm amazed by You,
..and how you love me."
on the optimistic side, Justin told me he's been prayin for me about the direction of what i'm suposed to be doin with the rest of my life. he said he knew that i've been struggling with that. man that was a total blessing to hear. it was encouraging. to know that someone else is prayin about your struggles (when they just kinda of picked it up on their own) is awesome. sometimes i feel like i'm prayin out of selfishness, that i'll know wut i'm suposed to do when it happens and that i worry about it too much. that maybe it's not that big of a deal. or maybe that God has already given me the direction i'm suposed to go in and i'm not listening to Him. i think that is my biggest fear. not hearing God. or maybe selective hearing. sometimes i wish God would just pick up a plank of wood and write down my lifes story and then throw it at me so i would have somethin to go on. or atleast to make sure i'm paying attention to Him.
anyway, God is in control and He knows what's best so i just need to give eveything up to him. and He deffinitly put Justin there tonight to give me some encouragement. that was all God.
YOU ARE AMAZING!
...here's a good song
"You dance over me,
while I am unaware.
You sing all around,
though I never hear a sound.
Lord, I'm amazed by You.
Lord, I'm amazed by You.
Lord, I'm amazed by You,
..and how you love me."