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well this has been the worst weekend of my life. actually the worst sunday of my life. i feel so bad and so pissed of that i cant stand anything anymore. im so sad sad sad sad sad sad/ i hate it. my life could be pretty much over. i could care freakin less or something. i hate most of the people that i ssee. and most of the people that i dont see. i have no freakin reason for being. being anything or anywhere. my life is so fucked up. it has been for about a freakin month and i have been sad and pissed for about a month but ive kept it all inside. but i blew a fuse yesterday and then i walked away from it\like people qare suppossed to. and that got all fucked up. i dont know. my mom is mad but she doesnt show it because i havnt asked to hang out with jen yet. and now im probably not going to mexico. which is my fault apparently. i have no reason. no freakin reason at all. why should this even matter. life is just so bad. how are we even here. that nothing makes any sense to me any more. thanks alot. i need to do something about it. i went to that freakin dentsist. i hate the dentist. they always are giving me bad tasting toothpaste. they probab;y hate me or something. i hate them back. i hate a lot of things right now. i just want my mom to accept me for who i am. i hate that she wont let me hang out with frieds onless i say that i am going to do home work. i hate that. i hate it.