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I knew it was bound to happen eventually and today, I officially cried in the MJS newsroom for the first time. It was after everyone else left, thank goodness, but everything just sort of collapse on me all at once.
I'm starting to experience alot of anxiety about my job situation. All signs point to them hiring me permanently, but the deadline is creeping up more and more rapidly. I need to say something to my boss about it, but for as assertive and self confident as I can be more of the time, at work I still feel like a little girl playing office most of the time.
I've been freak out cleaning alot recently which doesn't really seem like a healthy habit, even if it is productive. In any case, you could probably eat off my bathroom floor.
I miss my family right now, especially when I see Andrea and Monica together. There's something about the presence of people who have to love you no matter what that is really calming and at 23 years old, I don't think I have ever wanted my mommy so much.
But, that being said, I have excellant distractions. I've had alot of fun in the little time off that i've had recently. Haunted houses, watching kickball while reading a trashy magazine, lunches, monday fundays, pumpkin patches. I am so lucky that Laura helped me find these people and I don't know that I have thanked her enough.
Not sure what the purpose of this entry was...just needed alittle clearing of the head.
I'm starting to experience alot of anxiety about my job situation. All signs point to them hiring me permanently, but the deadline is creeping up more and more rapidly. I need to say something to my boss about it, but for as assertive and self confident as I can be more of the time, at work I still feel like a little girl playing office most of the time.
I've been freak out cleaning alot recently which doesn't really seem like a healthy habit, even if it is productive. In any case, you could probably eat off my bathroom floor.
I miss my family right now, especially when I see Andrea and Monica together. There's something about the presence of people who have to love you no matter what that is really calming and at 23 years old, I don't think I have ever wanted my mommy so much.
But, that being said, I have excellant distractions. I've had alot of fun in the little time off that i've had recently. Haunted houses, watching kickball while reading a trashy magazine, lunches, monday fundays, pumpkin patches. I am so lucky that Laura helped me find these people and I don't know that I have thanked her enough.
Not sure what the purpose of this entry was...just needed alittle clearing of the head.