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[bethalina]

i'm not ready.

to quite smoking.

or talk.

or reconcile.

to be twenty-five.

i'm not ready to go to bed early

or to be full-time.

or be a role-model.

i'm not ready to make ends meet

or to pay bills when they are due.

or to even open bills.

i'm not ready
i'm not ready
i'm not ready
whining and bitching and moaning and groaning. this is what i will do for another hour. then i will make my bed. reply to tessa's email. and write emily a letter.