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i hardly write about my troubles in this.
but ive lied. i've hidden.
and some lies need to come out.
every day i get closer to death.
and every day gets worse.
i'm slowly falling down and after rapes and murders and an unfair childhood. i'd rather have that back then these last 3 years.
i'm not strong enough but i wont try to get help. reallll help.
you ask and i wont tell you.
and in all honesty i think i'd rather see them angry then heartbroken when i die.
so ill play these games. for now.
im also quitting my job soon and moving back in with my grandparents, i doubt much of you will see me ever again.
sorrys were never good enough.
so just know that i still have a pure heart.
but ive lied. i've hidden.
and some lies need to come out.
every day i get closer to death.
and every day gets worse.
i'm slowly falling down and after rapes and murders and an unfair childhood. i'd rather have that back then these last 3 years.
i'm not strong enough but i wont try to get help. reallll help.
you ask and i wont tell you.
and in all honesty i think i'd rather see them angry then heartbroken when i die.
so ill play these games. for now.
im also quitting my job soon and moving back in with my grandparents, i doubt much of you will see me ever again.
sorrys were never good enough.
so just know that i still have a pure heart.