a heaping bowl of emotion soup
i feel odd. very off. unsure. in the past 24 hours, i:
- talked on the phone w/ my old kiwi flatmate in london, shaun
- smoked (part of) a 12inch blunt and accidentally got much higher than i intended
- ate pizza, icecream, a massive cinnamon roll, and a cookie (all within 3 hours)
- didn't get any work done (very bad because i had a paper due thursday and a lab report that i have to have done today)
- bought cigarettes
- found myself missing casey horribly
- slept for 8 hours (again, bad because i have so much work to do)
- had insanely sexual dreams, mostly involving me and three other people (very hot, but totally crazy)
- woke up and casey called me, mentioned that he got his weapon 'zeroed' today (so it shoots where he aims). this absolutely terrifies me... liz and i talked about how scary and awful it is that there's a good chance they could actually be shooting people, but when he told me that today, it really hit me. and it made me incredibly uncomfortable and scared and just flat-out terrified.
i have an unbelievable amount of things to get done today and i have no motivation or focus right now to do any of it.
- talked on the phone w/ my old kiwi flatmate in london, shaun
- smoked (part of) a 12inch blunt and accidentally got much higher than i intended
- ate pizza, icecream, a massive cinnamon roll, and a cookie (all within 3 hours)
- didn't get any work done (very bad because i had a paper due thursday and a lab report that i have to have done today)
- bought cigarettes
- found myself missing casey horribly
- slept for 8 hours (again, bad because i have so much work to do)
- had insanely sexual dreams, mostly involving me and three other people (very hot, but totally crazy)
- woke up and casey called me, mentioned that he got his weapon 'zeroed' today (so it shoots where he aims). this absolutely terrifies me... liz and i talked about how scary and awful it is that there's a good chance they could actually be shooting people, but when he told me that today, it really hit me. and it made me incredibly uncomfortable and scared and just flat-out terrified.
i have an unbelievable amount of things to get done today and i have no motivation or focus right now to do any of it.