Just musing and sounding off a bit.
I can't seem to word this adequately so that it doesn't sound overly vague, simplistic, or cliched, but all I can think to say to express what's on my mind is: Do you ever find yourself so thoroughly eating your words after you say something so cock-sure that you think you couldn't possibly change your mind? I mean, do you ever assert something about your character or philosophy and after a rather short while, suddenly find yourself drawn in the opposite direction, or to the very thing you swore you'd never want? For the last two weeks, I've definitely been feeling like a bit of a tool for this and doing too much navel-gazing in an effort to understand it. I seem to keep writing it off with a simplistic divine explanation--that the Universe has sent me a small challenge to see if can truly live up to my claims of open-mindedness about a variety of types of people. Who knows ...we'll see how long this lasts.