So I left the sugar diary hanging.

[beth60]

Anyway, it ended with Thursday and I can see that I'm easily influenced by outside forces, such as seeing something sugary, or emotional stress.  I'd like to clarify that by emotional sugar consumption, what I mean is not that I consciously seek comfort in sugary foods.  What actually happens to me is that stress will sometimes trigger a headache of sorts that feels like my very brain is craving sugar or chocolate, and I'm too impatient to wait for the sensation to disappear on its own, so I satisfy it with something like a chocolate chip cookie.  At any rate, I'll have to work on replacing things such as cookies or other baked goods with fruit or carrots, and since my spring break turned out to be a period of inspiration for improving my health and looks, thinking about sugar consumption led me to examine my intake of all kinds of foods.  As much as I hate to admit it, I have put on some fat and it shows--I can't wear certain clothes because they either don't fit or show all of my lumps and bumps.  I've long been stubborn about counting calories, so I'll instead try focusing on quality first, along with more exercise.  I hope those are sufficient for my underweight/overfat body type, and if not, then reducing calorie intake will have to follow.  The goal, as it always has been when I've been on the wagon, will be to lose fat and gain (muscle) weight.  I found out that as a U of A student, I am automatically a member of the University's gym, so starting tomorrow, I'll be exercising there some days while maintaining a routine at my regular gym.  Here's hoping I'll be ready for the warm weather to come--the exceptionally summery spring break I had showed me that it's hard to even wear a t-shirt these days.  I've gotten used to hiding my spare tire under sweaters and hoodies over the course of the winter.  I was even relieved that today is cold and sleeting because it meant I could wear a chunky sweater and stop stressing over my gut!

Alright, that's enough quacking about myself, so it's time to head to the cafeteria to either heat up my miso soup or have a salad.