Lessons...
Man-o-man. Tomorrow I start lessons again. I haven't seriously studied clarinet for about a year. Needless-to-say, I didn't tell my new teacher this. I told him it had been about 6 months, and that I was a little rusty. I'm a little nervous about this. Not only am I nervous but I find myself with the same problem I've been facing for a while. Amotivational syndrome. I thought this was only something that I had when I smoked too much pot. Well - almost a year since I've quit smoking and I'm still unmotivated. Maybe it's because I don't really want to do this for the rest of my life, or maybe it's because I'm lazy. I believe it's the latter. I think anything worth doing and anything that takes lifting any finger to accomplish is habitual. I must make a habit out of practicing. This, boys and girls is difficult. But, what worth having isn't? I don't know. It definitely wasn't hard to be with D. This relationship is easy and the "arguments" that we have are easily solved. I don't know if that's anything the same. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't. Well - hopefully this lesson will help me be motivated. Wish me luck.