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[Hexed Private]
Since 'Paradise Lost' seems to be everywhere recently, might as well brush up a bit...
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A mind not to be changed by place or time.
The mind is its own place, and in itself
Can make a Heaven of Hell, a Hell of Heaven.
What matter where, if I be still the same,
And what I should be, all but less than he
Whom thunder hath made greater? Here at least
We shall be free; th' Almighty hath not built
Here for his envy, will not drive us hence:
Here we may reign secure; and, in my choice,
To reign is worth ambition, though in Hell:
Better to reign in Hell than serve in Heaven.
[Hexed Private]
Anxiety wells within me like a sickness. This is a guilt I am unaccustomed to. Spiritual guilt is different. You don't have the threat of being caught and punished in this life with spiritual guilt of wrongs. This... this is all very different.
I long for someone to talk to about all of this. But I'm still alone. Antonin's on the other side -- cannot talk to him. And Narcissa -- who is Narcissa anymore? This new side still doesn't trust me -- I've no confidants here. And Kit... Kit is too delicate. He cannot be told anything. Not yet.
...Severus. Maybe I could talk to Severus. ...Well, hell, why not talk to Dumbledore? Might be easier to talk to Dumbledore than it is to talk to Severus...
...Lord. I'm alone.
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[Hexed Private to Antonin]
I'm worried about you. Let me see you? Or come to see me? Anything, just quell this solicitude of mine. I hate to see you like this. I love you.
[/Private]
Since 'Paradise Lost' seems to be everywhere recently, might as well brush up a bit...
[/Private]
A mind not to be changed by place or time.
The mind is its own place, and in itself
Can make a Heaven of Hell, a Hell of Heaven.
What matter where, if I be still the same,
And what I should be, all but less than he
Whom thunder hath made greater? Here at least
We shall be free; th' Almighty hath not built
Here for his envy, will not drive us hence:
Here we may reign secure; and, in my choice,
To reign is worth ambition, though in Hell:
Better to reign in Hell than serve in Heaven.
[Hexed Private]
Anxiety wells within me like a sickness. This is a guilt I am unaccustomed to. Spiritual guilt is different. You don't have the threat of being caught and punished in this life with spiritual guilt of wrongs. This... this is all very different.
I long for someone to talk to about all of this. But I'm still alone. Antonin's on the other side -- cannot talk to him. And Narcissa -- who is Narcissa anymore? This new side still doesn't trust me -- I've no confidants here. And Kit... Kit is too delicate. He cannot be told anything. Not yet.
...Severus. Maybe I could talk to Severus. ...Well, hell, why not talk to Dumbledore? Might be easier to talk to Dumbledore than it is to talk to Severus...
...Lord. I'm alone.
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[Hexed Private to Antonin]
I'm worried about you. Let me see you? Or come to see me? Anything, just quell this solicitude of mine. I hate to see you like this. I love you.
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