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I can't escape my stupid inability to truly get over someone, even being with someone else didn't help. wouldn't even sleep with them because i felt guiltly. the guilt of basically being in love with the wrong person, and running away. instead of fixing things i made excuse after excuse. then left. I mean fuck, i should move the fuck on already. i had a new girlfriend, which was a joke honestly i wouldn't even fuck her because i just couldn't handle it. what fuckin dude does that? what guy has a girl running back and fourth for 3 years...me i did that. i hate myself for that. i regret it.