keep a calendar, this way you'll always know
so I had a really mopey, emo entry all ready but lets skip that, shall we?
New schedule up tonight: I work wednesdays now ughhhhhhh. :( my fave night of the week :( now im gonna miss the project runway finale and top model and the island and asdfghjkl pissed. I'm scheduled for 37 hours on the new schedule - when the hell did my temp job at subway turn into full time? i'm prolly the only person there that's pissed to get all these hours. I hate work :( idc if i only get $150 a week, I like my free time :( I hate life so much while I'm there, and now i'm there 5 days a week and I just don't want to do it. The manager did it cause I'm the only person that works and I'm polite and shit. It kinda feels good to be getting the most hours now, being the new kid, I'm at the top now. But dnw to work those hours. I've had the worst customers today and the guy I worked with didn't come on the line AT ALL and I was up there nonstop from 3-8. I ended up taking a break and getting some of my frustration out with tears, tbh. I hate breaking down but that's how much I dislike it. But then the manager called and wanted to talk to me so I had to suck it up and go back inside.
But you know what, if I just get through it, stay positive and don't let stuff get to me, when I leave it'll be that much easier. Told myself that towards the end of the night, and it helps. Just don't think about it, do it, and go home. It's hard to feel good about life in general though when I have to go there everyday.
Anyway. fob is keeping me sane through this. And all this lead-up to twilight, and thinking about my trip to chicago for thanksgiving, and thinking about starting nanowrimo! I don't know how I'm going to find the time to write a novel while working full time, though. But I want to do it more than anything.
Yesterday was my sister's 21st, it was fun! We bought lotsssss of liquor and went out to the beach first to have island-y drinks and nachos, and walk by the water. Then we met a bunch of her friends at applebees, and she was pretty loud and drunk haha. Her friends invited her out to play beer pong and her boyfriend made me go with her to "watch" her. So I'm sitting on this patio watching them play, and they're not even nice people (the girls were really annoying), and then my sister and her boyfriend get into a fight and go out front and leave me there, with these strangers, for almost an hour. I felt totally awkward, cause I was just the protector big sis, and these people didn't even take the time to say hello to me, so I just sat there quietly. It was okay though, one boy there was pretty cute and I got a fic idea~ while listening to them talk, so.
Oh! I got asked out tonight :( this guy that I somewhat know (through a coworker) came in and was asking me if I had a boyfriend, and if I was looking for one. omg. He's like 28 and has little to no teeth and is so sketch, I don't even like talking to him in general (lol sorry if that sounds mean.) But before he leaves he goes, "well, let me at least give you my number so we can hang out sometimes." I had to politely refuse like 3 times and just say "I'll see you around" before he gave it up. :( I felt bad but I'm not interested in the slightest, sorry.
The palpitations have almost stopped. I've cut out coffee and soda and subway subs (i just get salads now) and a lot of sugar. But from now on I'm going to be healthy in general, and really try to get in shape! I did a workout video the other day, and oh my I'm out of shape, it made me sore today. But I know I'll feel so much better about myself if I commit to this and really do it this time. :)
I think I pretty much made up my mind at work tonight that I'm going to grad school in the fall.
New schedule up tonight: I work wednesdays now ughhhhhhh. :( my fave night of the week :( now im gonna miss the project runway finale and top model and the island and asdfghjkl pissed. I'm scheduled for 37 hours on the new schedule - when the hell did my temp job at subway turn into full time? i'm prolly the only person there that's pissed to get all these hours. I hate work :( idc if i only get $150 a week, I like my free time :( I hate life so much while I'm there, and now i'm there 5 days a week and I just don't want to do it. The manager did it cause I'm the only person that works and I'm polite and shit. It kinda feels good to be getting the most hours now, being the new kid, I'm at the top now. But dnw to work those hours. I've had the worst customers today and the guy I worked with didn't come on the line AT ALL and I was up there nonstop from 3-8. I ended up taking a break and getting some of my frustration out with tears, tbh. I hate breaking down but that's how much I dislike it. But then the manager called and wanted to talk to me so I had to suck it up and go back inside.
But you know what, if I just get through it, stay positive and don't let stuff get to me, when I leave it'll be that much easier. Told myself that towards the end of the night, and it helps. Just don't think about it, do it, and go home. It's hard to feel good about life in general though when I have to go there everyday.
Anyway. fob is keeping me sane through this. And all this lead-up to twilight, and thinking about my trip to chicago for thanksgiving, and thinking about starting nanowrimo! I don't know how I'm going to find the time to write a novel while working full time, though. But I want to do it more than anything.
Yesterday was my sister's 21st, it was fun! We bought lotsssss of liquor and went out to the beach first to have island-y drinks and nachos, and walk by the water. Then we met a bunch of her friends at applebees, and she was pretty loud and drunk haha. Her friends invited her out to play beer pong and her boyfriend made me go with her to "watch" her. So I'm sitting on this patio watching them play, and they're not even nice people (the girls were really annoying), and then my sister and her boyfriend get into a fight and go out front and leave me there, with these strangers, for almost an hour. I felt totally awkward, cause I was just the protector big sis, and these people didn't even take the time to say hello to me, so I just sat there quietly. It was okay though, one boy there was pretty cute and I got a fic idea~ while listening to them talk, so.
Oh! I got asked out tonight :( this guy that I somewhat know (through a coworker) came in and was asking me if I had a boyfriend, and if I was looking for one. omg. He's like 28 and has little to no teeth and is so sketch, I don't even like talking to him in general (lol sorry if that sounds mean.) But before he leaves he goes, "well, let me at least give you my number so we can hang out sometimes." I had to politely refuse like 3 times and just say "I'll see you around" before he gave it up. :( I felt bad but I'm not interested in the slightest, sorry.
The palpitations have almost stopped. I've cut out coffee and soda and subway subs (i just get salads now) and a lot of sugar. But from now on I'm going to be healthy in general, and really try to get in shape! I did a workout video the other day, and oh my I'm out of shape, it made me sore today. But I know I'll feel so much better about myself if I commit to this and really do it this time. :)
I think I pretty much made up my mind at work tonight that I'm going to grad school in the fall.