rough week
this past week not much happened and then it did. i know that makes no sense. i didn't go to school tuesday or today. tuesday i didn't feel well, and today was the same. except, in a different way. yesterday was crazy. after school a lot happened, stuff i can't even explain. it was an emotional mess. i'm leaving it at that. just know, i'm here, for you. for all of you. my friends come first and foremost. and maybe that is my problem. maybe i focus too much on my friendships and what i put into them, but that is who i am. i am that way because i choose to be. without my friends, i would be nothing. and that is the honest truth. over the years so much has happened to me. things many people don't even know, but they have happened none the less. and it's been my friends who have been there for me through it all. yes, i have lost and gained new friends over the years but it doesn't matter. so when anyone or anything comes between my friends and me, or their happiness, you better believe something is going to be said. and that is all i am saying. they help me through anything, and i will help them through anything. so thanks to you all.
yesterday was the lunar eclipse. i wasn't planning on watching it, i was going to go to sleep early and just get some rest but i changed my mind. the family and i went outside and they were in the hot tub hanging out and i just was watching the sky. it was so beautiful last night. so slowly the lunar eclipse happened and it was really pretty. i love the sky so much. it's so endless, it's perfect. while i was out there, i saw my first shooting star. and while it was amazing to see it was the crappiest feeling ever. i'm not getting into it. so the rest of the night was really bad. i haven't had a night like that in awhile. i was really upset about a lot, more than i knew i was upset. i had no idea why i was, well i did but not to that degree. i guess a lot has been building up inside for awhile. so i stayed home today. i was sick to my stomach and i didn't really get a lot of sleep.
i have to go babysitting for two hours tonight, not really looking forward to it, but again it's for money. and then tomorrow is friday. thank god. i need a weekend, a fun weekend. and i really hope this weekend is just the thing. and that is really all i have to say.