Cause my feelings mean nothing....
Tonight was terrific but troublesome.
seeing you guys was fantastic. yes, i was bored, but i've never been happier to be bored before!
I think I affirmed what i already thought. I was so happy to be there but so sad to see what i can't have. this is so obvious im going to regret it later. thank you to mr. vicodin for making me not care.
Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today ive wasted away for today is on my mind.
mhm.
I do this to myself. Maybe I need this on some level..... an inner struggle.
Now I can't care to worry. I'm feeling so lonely, breaking apart this in my heart. Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind.............. where feelings mean nothing.
Whats sad is in reality he did nothing for me to think of him like this, this is all me. So i need to get over it, find another somebody. He was never my somebody though... thats what makes this funny......
and i'm cracking myself up.
:::::::IN OTHER NEWS::::::::::
I think Mike may be the funniest person I've ever seen. Halo is funny as hell to watch, i take a spectator sport approach to it i suppose. Seth,,, you are too awesome. I was very happy to see you. Steve...you too sir make me laugh, and i enjoy you. Thanks for my hug justin.... ahem!
I need to stop making so much trouble for myself.
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Who am i kidding? This will be deleted before anyone sees it.