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I have been doing a lot lately. Not much time for writing in here, let alone on the computer much at all. No biggie. I guess throughout the busy-ness I have had some time to think about things. I have come to appreciate the past and move on. I don't care what anyone will say, I haven't been happy in general the past few months... I am not talking just relationship ways here. Everything with my mom, work and school has gotten to me. So I decided I needed a break from other things that I can't do right now.
Honestly, at first I thought it was crazy and yeah, I was gonna try to take back what I said. I didn't get that chance though.
Things seem to be doing so much better lately.
My mom is awake, and I actually heard her voice today. It was the most beautiful thing ever.
I have been hanging out with someone new, Mike. He is very nice and I don't know if more will happen, but it is nice to be treated this way. We've been having a lot of fun like going to the last 2 Pens games, ice skating, and just watching funny movies together. It's been keeping my mind off other things.
I still get sad from time to time and think about things that I let go. I do miss it... him. But I don't miss the way my heart would sink into my stomach everytime I came over. I don't miss fighting. I do miss talking. I do miss helping eachother. And I do miss laughing.
But everything changes. And I have to change too.
ps. i want my nana to go back to florida.
Honestly, at first I thought it was crazy and yeah, I was gonna try to take back what I said. I didn't get that chance though.
Things seem to be doing so much better lately.
My mom is awake, and I actually heard her voice today. It was the most beautiful thing ever.
I have been hanging out with someone new, Mike. He is very nice and I don't know if more will happen, but it is nice to be treated this way. We've been having a lot of fun like going to the last 2 Pens games, ice skating, and just watching funny movies together. It's been keeping my mind off other things.
I still get sad from time to time and think about things that I let go. I do miss it... him. But I don't miss the way my heart would sink into my stomach everytime I came over. I don't miss fighting. I do miss talking. I do miss helping eachother. And I do miss laughing.
But everything changes. And I have to change too.
ps. i want my nana to go back to florida.