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I hate that the one person in the world that cares about me to no end cares about me because he has to.
And I hate that because I dont suck up, and I just do my work, no recognition is given except for a...oh, we didnt give her one, so let's just make up an award. I'm sorry that I have too much self respect to stick my nose up a teachers ass, but hey, let's just keep awarding those that don't know where they end.
And I hate that as soon as people come home from college, my best friend ditches me for them. I guess I should be used to it, it was like that before they went to college too. But who got phone calls every day because she was bored and talked to her almost every night on the computer before bed? Me. Funny now that other people are home, I'm a big pile of dogshit.
But what kills me the most is that work is more important than your girlfriend graduating from high school. I'm sorry that you found your graduation to be miniscule and chose not to go, but maybe I'm not like that. Maybe I'm different from you. I'm sorry that you have things to pay for, but so do I, and I make the time to come see you weekend after weekend, even if I can't really afford it. I hate looking forward to seeing you somewhere and then you decide you should go to work instead. I hate that I'm always second to something else. I think I'd like to be first once in a while. Maybe you don't understand how being second feels, because I've always thought of you first.
I hate that I have to go to a college that I promised myself I'd never go to, because my parents are too greedy to help me pay for college. I hate that I have to drive a shitty car because my parents are too cheap to find me a good one.
I hate that my brother is the only one in my family that shows any sort of interest in my life.
And I hate that because I dont suck up, and I just do my work, no recognition is given except for a...oh, we didnt give her one, so let's just make up an award. I'm sorry that I have too much self respect to stick my nose up a teachers ass, but hey, let's just keep awarding those that don't know where they end.
And I hate that as soon as people come home from college, my best friend ditches me for them. I guess I should be used to it, it was like that before they went to college too. But who got phone calls every day because she was bored and talked to her almost every night on the computer before bed? Me. Funny now that other people are home, I'm a big pile of dogshit.
But what kills me the most is that work is more important than your girlfriend graduating from high school. I'm sorry that you found your graduation to be miniscule and chose not to go, but maybe I'm not like that. Maybe I'm different from you. I'm sorry that you have things to pay for, but so do I, and I make the time to come see you weekend after weekend, even if I can't really afford it. I hate looking forward to seeing you somewhere and then you decide you should go to work instead. I hate that I'm always second to something else. I think I'd like to be first once in a while. Maybe you don't understand how being second feels, because I've always thought of you first.
I hate that I have to go to a college that I promised myself I'd never go to, because my parents are too greedy to help me pay for college. I hate that I have to drive a shitty car because my parents are too cheap to find me a good one.
I hate that my brother is the only one in my family that shows any sort of interest in my life.