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the sudden rain this evening has made me so sleepy. I've been relatively tired actually and most likely at what is considered a normal time to go to bed. I'm used to falling asleep at 1:30 or 2 in the morning so now that I'msleeping by 12:30, it is beginning to effect my whole day. I think my body is preparing me for a real job and not a sporadic college schedule. If my internship offers me placement at the end of the year, it's a possibility I'll take it and that is not a normal job. I intern at the Baird Center with kids in residential care so I only work at night, except on the weekends. The kids live in residential because of their high levels of emotional and behavioral issues that they cannot live at home or in foster care because they're deemed unsafe to live in society. I've never done work like this and it's so different from anything I've been involved with. It's super challenging but I love it so much already. These kids begin to have familial attachments to you which is intense for a 21 year old who doesn't plan on having kids any time soon but it's so amazing because even when a 9 year old calls you a mother fucking bitch or a 10 year old boy physically threatens to smash you on the head with a metal snow shovel, you know that deep down they do like you and are starting to trust you. It's all about limits and how far they can push you and when you interfere how they react and to build the relationship so they know you won't just leave them.
But I don't live there, just work. I also love doing tuck-ins. They can request staff attention at bedtime, as long as they've earned it and haven't fucked up that day, and usually they want their backs scratched or stories read. One boy has me read Harry Potter and I do voices and he's sodamn judgemental of them but I try anyway. We also play this "game," Dino Tag. I'm always the chaser and I pretend to be a T-Rex and I love acting like one so that's what I am going to be for halloween.I just get winded easily and I feel like an old fart. DREAM is going pretty well, we've taken on a few new mentors and they're all pretty much the shit. There's one kid, Paul, he's 13, that I really want to take onas a new mentee in the program, he's incredibly intelligent and definitely has his shit straightened out and will be awesome when he's older, I'll admit, you know me too well, I would totally have a crush on him if he were a lot older. but he's not and I've come to terms with that.
speaking of crushes. holy moley, my mash prof told us where he lives, in an apt complex above a bar downtown, and one night I stumbled out of that bar and went in and drunk dialed his call box in his apt building twice, luckily he never picked up. but he works at Woodside, a juvenile rehab center, basically jail for younger males, as a teacher and works with extremely challenging kids and has such a sexy voice and is completely balding by a receding hairline and wears bunchy white cotton socks and tighter faded denim jeans and is most likely at least 38...but I'm in love. And I have a mega crush on my supervisor, Josh Killion, so groovy, tall and thin and blonde from California...dream boat.
work time.
But I don't live there, just work. I also love doing tuck-ins. They can request staff attention at bedtime, as long as they've earned it and haven't fucked up that day, and usually they want their backs scratched or stories read. One boy has me read Harry Potter and I do voices and he's sodamn judgemental of them but I try anyway. We also play this "game," Dino Tag. I'm always the chaser and I pretend to be a T-Rex and I love acting like one so that's what I am going to be for halloween.I just get winded easily and I feel like an old fart. DREAM is going pretty well, we've taken on a few new mentors and they're all pretty much the shit. There's one kid, Paul, he's 13, that I really want to take onas a new mentee in the program, he's incredibly intelligent and definitely has his shit straightened out and will be awesome when he's older, I'll admit, you know me too well, I would totally have a crush on him if he were a lot older. but he's not and I've come to terms with that.
speaking of crushes. holy moley, my mash prof told us where he lives, in an apt complex above a bar downtown, and one night I stumbled out of that bar and went in and drunk dialed his call box in his apt building twice, luckily he never picked up. but he works at Woodside, a juvenile rehab center, basically jail for younger males, as a teacher and works with extremely challenging kids and has such a sexy voice and is completely balding by a receding hairline and wears bunchy white cotton socks and tighter faded denim jeans and is most likely at least 38...but I'm in love. And I have a mega crush on my supervisor, Josh Killion, so groovy, tall and thin and blonde from California...dream boat.
work time.