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I love sitting at the library on a computer, usually checking e-mail or just hanging out in between classes and rehearsals. I am at a very relaxed and amazed part of my life and I really enjoy it. Having Sam's presence in my immediate life this weekend was wonderful, he is so...everything and all things in one that I am loving right now, I love him. We are in a relationship and we talked about it for a bit last night because I could tell it was on his mind because he kept referencing us being a couple or not? -in a questioning manner- and I was honest and told him that it basically scares the crap out of me to just jump into another relationship and is it even real because this was the first time we had seen one another since early January??!! He lives in NYC and could find any woman that could take his breath away and I expressed that to him and he explained that that could happen at any time in any situation but his mind and heart are only with me.
Seriously, the way he talks about relationships and romance and being creepy and laughing at farts and not making sense and being serious when it feels right and eating what tastes good and being incredibly goofy and attempting not to take life too seriously when it's so hard not to, is eerily similar to how I am/do. We would just look at eachother and say something and it would be what the other was thinking, and not always the obvious. I want to gush and hug you all and cry to you as I explain how I haven't felt this sort of intensity since Jim, only so completely different and wonderful and scary at the same time, to each and every one of you, but that is hard, so try to imagine until I can express it to you all in person. I love being with Sam, holding his hand, laughing at or with him, making dinner with him, making love, hopes to travel to New Zealand with him and it's just...absolutley frigging wonderful, how else to express it? I don't think I stopped smiling for more than 5 minutes the entire time he was here. Some things just go together and really make sense, I think this is it. We were never at a stop for words which was so much fun, we had so much fun together! And that's what I love so much, having fun and being excited and wanting to cry late at night when we were just laying in bed together giggling. It's really really good, absolutley great.
In other good news!!!!:: We may have found a fucking great potential apartment for next year. We just need to find a 5th roommate and exact the rent. 5 bedrooms, 4 out of the 5 are HUGE, like, bigger than Robyn's bedroom at home, about the size of my living room up here. 3 baths, two floors, hardwood floors, utilities included, all possibly! A perfect distance between campus and downtown and UVM campus. Super spacious, high ceilings. Possibly 500-550/month a person, but all utilities included. Just need to find that 5th roommate.
I'm really gung-ho on rehearsals for the One-Acts, if any one is free and bored March 15-20, come see "Not for the Faint of Heart" at Champlain College, I'm in them and they kick ass. I'm also organizing a group pf college kids to volunteer at an elderly living facility, that is seeming really fun. And Louie is calming down, he's not as biting or scratching lately.
SPAIN IN ABOUT A WEEEEEEEEEEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously, the way he talks about relationships and romance and being creepy and laughing at farts and not making sense and being serious when it feels right and eating what tastes good and being incredibly goofy and attempting not to take life too seriously when it's so hard not to, is eerily similar to how I am/do. We would just look at eachother and say something and it would be what the other was thinking, and not always the obvious. I want to gush and hug you all and cry to you as I explain how I haven't felt this sort of intensity since Jim, only so completely different and wonderful and scary at the same time, to each and every one of you, but that is hard, so try to imagine until I can express it to you all in person. I love being with Sam, holding his hand, laughing at or with him, making dinner with him, making love, hopes to travel to New Zealand with him and it's just...absolutley frigging wonderful, how else to express it? I don't think I stopped smiling for more than 5 minutes the entire time he was here. Some things just go together and really make sense, I think this is it. We were never at a stop for words which was so much fun, we had so much fun together! And that's what I love so much, having fun and being excited and wanting to cry late at night when we were just laying in bed together giggling. It's really really good, absolutley great.
In other good news!!!!:: We may have found a fucking great potential apartment for next year. We just need to find a 5th roommate and exact the rent. 5 bedrooms, 4 out of the 5 are HUGE, like, bigger than Robyn's bedroom at home, about the size of my living room up here. 3 baths, two floors, hardwood floors, utilities included, all possibly! A perfect distance between campus and downtown and UVM campus. Super spacious, high ceilings. Possibly 500-550/month a person, but all utilities included. Just need to find that 5th roommate.
I'm really gung-ho on rehearsals for the One-Acts, if any one is free and bored March 15-20, come see "Not for the Faint of Heart" at Champlain College, I'm in them and they kick ass. I'm also organizing a group pf college kids to volunteer at an elderly living facility, that is seeming really fun. And Louie is calming down, he's not as biting or scratching lately.
SPAIN IN ABOUT A WEEEEEEEEEEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!