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I don't know what the hell is going on. Gayle and I just spoke on the phone for 30 minutes,and based on how the convo was going,I'm under the assumption that we're going to break up,and of course it really saddens me. I talked to Alyse and Patrick, who have had arguably shitty long-distance relationships.They think they're some underlying meaning to why she "can't handle the long distance anymore"(btw,thats not an exaggeration,thats literally just quoted from Gayle). I don't know what to tell her. I can't visit her all the time. Neither of us have the time. Even if our schools were close by,we couldn't see each other often.That's just how college is.
And alyse put something in perspective. We've change. I certainly have changed. Our lives are pretty much seperate,and a relationship involves sharing a life. It's more than talking,more interaction(and no,i dont mean sex) but just simply being together,and it pretty much is impossible to have to sustain a long distance relationship. Do I think gayle and i will technically be in a relationship? No,it just can't happen. However, as long as we both love each other, and don't want to see other people, than what does it really matter if we're in a "relationship" or not? Yes,the personal intimacy and physical presence is lacking,but nothing will change. We're either physically together..or we're not. And that's not even in terms of dating. My friends,a bunch who I've only become friends with a couple or so months ago,can be put into the same terms. I honestly miss all of you,but livejournals and instant messages don't always cut it.
Gayle says things are only gonna get worse,but unless she wants a full fledged breakoff,then we're just going to have to make the best of it. This semester is going to FLY by. But what will happen when I go to France for now 2 semesters? I'll be online maybe once a week,if that,so all those friends that will only talk on Aim and xangas and livejournals, what will happen to them? To all those still in high school,enjoy it while you can,because when the end of senior year comes around,it's bittersweet.And you WILL change,and your friends will change. When you're back home,you reminis for a bit and things seem back to normal. I think i just went off on a major tangent,and highly doubt anyone will read this whole thing.
And alyse put something in perspective. We've change. I certainly have changed. Our lives are pretty much seperate,and a relationship involves sharing a life. It's more than talking,more interaction(and no,i dont mean sex) but just simply being together,and it pretty much is impossible to have to sustain a long distance relationship. Do I think gayle and i will technically be in a relationship? No,it just can't happen. However, as long as we both love each other, and don't want to see other people, than what does it really matter if we're in a "relationship" or not? Yes,the personal intimacy and physical presence is lacking,but nothing will change. We're either physically together..or we're not. And that's not even in terms of dating. My friends,a bunch who I've only become friends with a couple or so months ago,can be put into the same terms. I honestly miss all of you,but livejournals and instant messages don't always cut it.
Gayle says things are only gonna get worse,but unless she wants a full fledged breakoff,then we're just going to have to make the best of it. This semester is going to FLY by. But what will happen when I go to France for now 2 semesters? I'll be online maybe once a week,if that,so all those friends that will only talk on Aim and xangas and livejournals, what will happen to them? To all those still in high school,enjoy it while you can,because when the end of senior year comes around,it's bittersweet.And you WILL change,and your friends will change. When you're back home,you reminis for a bit and things seem back to normal. I think i just went off on a major tangent,and highly doubt anyone will read this whole thing.