One of those nights
(Here from Pichooi's ff.net page? here is the voice skit she mentioned: http://bestactress2020.livejournal.com/36693.html )
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It's one of those glorious nights when I feel like I could sleep, but my mind doesn't want to. It won't let me because it's waiting for some sort of inspiration to come to it.
But of course, sometimes my body is just too tired to allow my mind to keep waiting. Even if I really really want to.
Then - of course - I'm distracted by all the things that I'm waiting for besides inspiration. It's a pretty long list, and I'm usually not a very patient lady.
It does frustrate me more when I think that I'm not in control of all this stuff, I don't have the map to my life. Then of course I think of who does, and I figure it's in better hands. Things to happen in God's time, not ours. If things happen when I want, then what would I have to look forward to? What would become of these little nights like this one?
I wouldn't have a need for them. However irksome waiting can be, I guess he knows what he's doing, because - even if everything I say in this post sounds like a cliche - nothing was worth it if you don't wait for it.
Man, that does all sound cliche, doesn't it? Maybe that's another thing, why are all these smart things considered cliche? Do we just not want to hear them?
Wow, I'm being overly-profound. That hasn't happened in a long time. I just wanted to vent.
I want to ork more on TitEoaD, but it really seems like an uphill thing. Maybe that's got some deep themes in it too, and that's why its so hard.
Gah, no more analyzing tonight. I look at it tomorrow and it might not make any sense.
ALOFC
-bestactress2020
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It's one of those glorious nights when I feel like I could sleep, but my mind doesn't want to. It won't let me because it's waiting for some sort of inspiration to come to it.
But of course, sometimes my body is just too tired to allow my mind to keep waiting. Even if I really really want to.
Then - of course - I'm distracted by all the things that I'm waiting for besides inspiration. It's a pretty long list, and I'm usually not a very patient lady.
It does frustrate me more when I think that I'm not in control of all this stuff, I don't have the map to my life. Then of course I think of who does, and I figure it's in better hands. Things to happen in God's time, not ours. If things happen when I want, then what would I have to look forward to? What would become of these little nights like this one?
I wouldn't have a need for them. However irksome waiting can be, I guess he knows what he's doing, because - even if everything I say in this post sounds like a cliche - nothing was worth it if you don't wait for it.
Man, that does all sound cliche, doesn't it? Maybe that's another thing, why are all these smart things considered cliche? Do we just not want to hear them?
Wow, I'm being overly-profound. That hasn't happened in a long time. I just wanted to vent.
I want to ork more on TitEoaD, but it really seems like an uphill thing. Maybe that's got some deep themes in it too, and that's why its so hard.
Gah, no more analyzing tonight. I look at it tomorrow and it might not make any sense.
ALOFC
-bestactress2020