this could get long
well here i sit...bored as hell in traverse city. don't get me wrong...i love my family and i appreciate the time i get to spend with them but one can only handle so much. i mean...i miss my girl. very much. it was really weird when i was leaving yesterday...i realized that this was going to be the longest we've been apart since...well...since we've known each other. sooo i cried...a lot...and then i cried some more. i'm such a baby. then on the drive up here i sat in my car for 3 hours just thinking about shit. i don't know what came over me the night of the christmas party. and when i say that i'm being honest because i don't even remember anything at all. which sucks...and makes me all embarrassed because who knows what else i could have said/done. let alone the worst thing ever which i won't mention. i think that i need to not drink. it's so hard though because it's just what people do. i know that i don't like myself when i drink though...well...i guess when i drink excessively. and thats just the problem. i don't know my limit...i never do. i just get wasted and do stupid shit. so i think the only answer is to not drink. whatever...i'm done thinking about that right now because it just frustrates me.
so i went shopping all day today with my sisters. it was fun...tiring but fun. i think we were at the mall for like 5 hours. and i'm still not done. i have to go back one more time to get my mom one more thing and my niece. who knows, i'll probably pick allison up something else too. ;) hmmmm...so this year christmas is going to be kinda weird because my sisters boyfriend is staying the night christmas eve. yeah...did i mention that my sister is 16?? well...i suppose her birthday is on christmas eve but still...thats a big deal to me kinda. i don't think i mind though because i really like joey and he treats her well so i guess i'll just go with the flow. alright...i'm lonely...and sad...missing my girl. my roommates too. i feel totally isolated up here. probably because i am because of the fucking foot and a half of snow. it's cold as hell.
alright just a few shout outs (haha)...to everyone Merry Christmas, i hope you all have a great one. and to diz and 5er, thanks for so much but especially well just for being you guys. the other night...well...you know. i think you are both so awesome and i'm so happy that you both decided to move in. you make the house a better place to come home to. diz...you better not forget on christmas around 1. it will be fun.
and to my girl...i miss you more than you know. i'm sorry that sometimes i take forgranted what we have but i think things like this makes us realize just how lucky we are to have each other. you are by far the best person i've ever known. thank you for sticking with me...even through the hard times. i can't wait until christmas night. awwww...it's still so far away. :*( i'm going to probably tackle you to the ground i'm going to be so excited to see you. then we will continue with our christmas tradition that i hope will last us a lifetime. i love you Fweddy.
so i went shopping all day today with my sisters. it was fun...tiring but fun. i think we were at the mall for like 5 hours. and i'm still not done. i have to go back one more time to get my mom one more thing and my niece. who knows, i'll probably pick allison up something else too. ;) hmmmm...so this year christmas is going to be kinda weird because my sisters boyfriend is staying the night christmas eve. yeah...did i mention that my sister is 16?? well...i suppose her birthday is on christmas eve but still...thats a big deal to me kinda. i don't think i mind though because i really like joey and he treats her well so i guess i'll just go with the flow. alright...i'm lonely...and sad...missing my girl. my roommates too. i feel totally isolated up here. probably because i am because of the fucking foot and a half of snow. it's cold as hell.
alright just a few shout outs (haha)...to everyone Merry Christmas, i hope you all have a great one. and to diz and 5er, thanks for so much but especially well just for being you guys. the other night...well...you know. i think you are both so awesome and i'm so happy that you both decided to move in. you make the house a better place to come home to. diz...you better not forget on christmas around 1. it will be fun.
and to my girl...i miss you more than you know. i'm sorry that sometimes i take forgranted what we have but i think things like this makes us realize just how lucky we are to have each other. you are by far the best person i've ever known. thank you for sticking with me...even through the hard times. i can't wait until christmas night. awwww...it's still so far away. :*( i'm going to probably tackle you to the ground i'm going to be so excited to see you. then we will continue with our christmas tradition that i hope will last us a lifetime. i love you Fweddy.