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The last time I updated in this journal was to stress over All Saints reuniting. Guess what, they still are. WHY??? I know that only like one other person has read their book in the entire world (Hi Sharon!), but you people need to understand this is like the craziest decision ever. I mean Nic and Nat must really want money. Especially Natalie because she HATES SHAZNAY AND MEL. I cannot even fully put into words how much she piled onto them being evil bitches. They ruined her and Nic's lives basically (except for helping them release two amazing albums), and made them miserable. They made a huge deal out of them going to nice fancy clubs and who they dated and THEIR MANAGEMENT MADE NIC GET AN ABORTION. I just don't get it. Shaznay is a crazy fucking bitch and Mel is almost worse. I mean I'm getting this all from a biased terribly written book of course but why let that stop me from voicing my opinion. I am so obsessed with Natalie Appleton it's insane and I will never understand why she is going through with this. Liam leaving her must have really stressed her out forcing her to make dumb irrational decisions. I still think he left her for agreeing to this wackiness though. I refuse to accept they've buried the hatchet. Even Mel or Shaz, I mean if you read anything about them after the Appletons' book came out they were furious. The world no longer makes any sense to me.
I'm doing...okay in school. I sort of bombed two biblical lit tests because I fucked up on the first and on the second didn't have a book. I guess not getting a -3 on that one was an accomplishment in itsself. I'm slacking like crazy. I just don't feel like doing any of the work and this is obviously a problem. I read Gulliver's Travels and really did not like it that much up until the last book which finally got me. We read Pope and Samuel Johnson, whose Idler 88 I really really enjoyed. Now we're on William Blake who is completely cracked out. I've been trying to look up critics responses to him and they all say the same thing - crazy! Just the way I like them. I have to read Much Ado About Nothing by next Monday which would be fine if I didn't keep thinking to myself that Keanu was in the movie so something must have struck the casting director about one of the characters being awful. Or maybe he's just stupid. Instead of reading that the other day I spent time memorizing the prologue from Romeo and Juliet which took too much time and has nothing to do with anything I need for classes. Though I do need to memorize two poems before the end of the semester for one of my classes. I think that'll be fun though.
Work is work. I'm paying my mother 250 more dollars a month now for my car/school/life, and it's sort of sucking my will to live. I like having my money on hand just in case. I need to buy new sneakers, these ones are terrible. I'm sort of getting disillusioned with my life again because I'm incredibly lonely all of the time and I rely entirely too much on things that will inevitably not last. I need to wrap myself up in books and coffee and get away from sadness and booze. of course that means a big night out on Saturday with friend from high school Andy in which I will probably get way too fucked up and partake in their planned Scavenger Hunt. Such is Mango.
American Idol is back in full force and I could not be happier. I think the girls this year are amazing and I haven't seen anything from the guys. I'm already not a big fan of grey hair though because he seems too pushed and I can't have that. Girls to watch: Paris, Lisa, Katharine, Mandisa, Kinnik and (hopefully) Melissa and Ayla. I actually like white girls it's a shock. Katharine and Lisa were my favorites yesterday but Lisa is too young and Katharine is too shoved down my throat already for my taste. Everyone hates on Ayla because she said she had a hardlife choosing between basketball and singing but hey, for her that seems like it would be the hardest thing to worry about. Anyway...only like three people reading know about American Idol and probably only one of them is actually reading. Haha.
I was totally just doing that lust list thing and could not come up with 20 people I lusted after. I mean there probably are but I just couldn't think. Give me time, give me time. I had mostly girls. Also - I would have put Ariel but Sharon and Steph beat me to the punch and i didn't just want to seem like a follower haha. Also - it says I can't put people like...normal people. Which means I'd have to leave off the guy sitting across from me, and man that would be a tragedy cause there's some mad lust going on right now.
You know what's weird? I mean it may not seem it but to me it is? I've been listening to so much Blur lately and I hadn't in months. I'm digging on them so much again right now. This is still their best song.
I'm doing...okay in school. I sort of bombed two biblical lit tests because I fucked up on the first and on the second didn't have a book. I guess not getting a -3 on that one was an accomplishment in itsself. I'm slacking like crazy. I just don't feel like doing any of the work and this is obviously a problem. I read Gulliver's Travels and really did not like it that much up until the last book which finally got me. We read Pope and Samuel Johnson, whose Idler 88 I really really enjoyed. Now we're on William Blake who is completely cracked out. I've been trying to look up critics responses to him and they all say the same thing - crazy! Just the way I like them. I have to read Much Ado About Nothing by next Monday which would be fine if I didn't keep thinking to myself that Keanu was in the movie so something must have struck the casting director about one of the characters being awful. Or maybe he's just stupid. Instead of reading that the other day I spent time memorizing the prologue from Romeo and Juliet which took too much time and has nothing to do with anything I need for classes. Though I do need to memorize two poems before the end of the semester for one of my classes. I think that'll be fun though.
Work is work. I'm paying my mother 250 more dollars a month now for my car/school/life, and it's sort of sucking my will to live. I like having my money on hand just in case. I need to buy new sneakers, these ones are terrible. I'm sort of getting disillusioned with my life again because I'm incredibly lonely all of the time and I rely entirely too much on things that will inevitably not last. I need to wrap myself up in books and coffee and get away from sadness and booze. of course that means a big night out on Saturday with friend from high school Andy in which I will probably get way too fucked up and partake in their planned Scavenger Hunt. Such is Mango.
American Idol is back in full force and I could not be happier. I think the girls this year are amazing and I haven't seen anything from the guys. I'm already not a big fan of grey hair though because he seems too pushed and I can't have that. Girls to watch: Paris, Lisa, Katharine, Mandisa, Kinnik and (hopefully) Melissa and Ayla. I actually like white girls it's a shock. Katharine and Lisa were my favorites yesterday but Lisa is too young and Katharine is too shoved down my throat already for my taste. Everyone hates on Ayla because she said she had a hardlife choosing between basketball and singing but hey, for her that seems like it would be the hardest thing to worry about. Anyway...only like three people reading know about American Idol and probably only one of them is actually reading. Haha.
I was totally just doing that lust list thing and could not come up with 20 people I lusted after. I mean there probably are but I just couldn't think. Give me time, give me time. I had mostly girls. Also - I would have put Ariel but Sharon and Steph beat me to the punch and i didn't just want to seem like a follower haha. Also - it says I can't put people like...normal people. Which means I'd have to leave off the guy sitting across from me, and man that would be a tragedy cause there's some mad lust going on right now.
You know what's weird? I mean it may not seem it but to me it is? I've been listening to so much Blur lately and I hadn't in months. I'm digging on them so much again right now. This is still their best song.