update for the sake of it
New art experiment. and other rantings under the cut.
Red & Blue. just realised theres a lot of touch up missing...T_T;;; too lazy...
No idea what i was aiming to achieve here. but heres an art update anyway. Apparently i SUCK at drawing creatures. I was intending to draw a monster, but didnt know how to. Then i changed my mind to a pack of wolves, but i didnt know how to start that either(much less colour it) then it turned into a single large long haired wolf-dog-thing that emits red lightning- yes thats red lightning. shut up. Then theres the random ugly/fugly horse and boring character. boooooo. PS. Those are supposed to be huge bones in background(the grey thingys!).
anyway, life hasnt been the best lately, since my mom's condition has not shown improvement. lots of water retention, doc visits, and needing our help to get up and down from chairs. So the air is kinda depressing in the house, and with my aunt going "its the power of prayer" and "you are healed" more times than i feel confortable with, it kinda makes me want to get out and forget about things. But since i dont have much chance to get out of the house, i stay in front of the com, kill my eyesight, and update with more art. I really dont know why i detest my aunt's strong faith. its not like i hate the religion, i just dont believe in its teachings of worship. Sometimes she says things that dont make sense.. and sounds really exaggerated its barely convincing. but ppl who need comfort buy that(my mom) and cynical ppl like me, just hate it. (wish there were more ppl like Doctor House. House M.D is a wonderful med drama. he's such a unsocialable bastard, its fun.)
another thing about my aunt is that she never wants to eat dinner with me and my maid, who's my new best friend in the house. we gossip about my aunt when she and my mom are at the clinicT_T(i'm sorry! but we've found common enemy!) my aunt will always claim she's not hungry at dinner time, even though she hasnt eaten dinner, so since she doesnt want it, ok we accept that. But then at the corner a few minutes later she'll be snacking on fish crackers, or sweets/biscuits or slices of peanut butter bread. I ask "thought you said you not hungry?" and she's says "no lah, i just like to eat it". yeah. only god believes you. She and my maid also use the same notebook to keep track of their petty cash. it originally belong to my maid(ana), but yesterday when Ana asked if she could use the book from the back and my aunt use it from the front, my aunt poked backed and said in a ambiguous manner "why? you want to share the book with me ah? hahaha". Now excuse me, but what was that supposed to mean. The book wasnt even yours to begin with so why say it like as if it was yours? Anyway, i just gave Ana an extra notebook of mine. Why bother to share when you dont have to. looking at my aunt makes me want to watch Angels & Demons even more, even though she probably doesnt have much to do with the vatican. But i loved DaVinci Code, and i love any story with conspiracy theories over religion or politics or the likes.
end of rant. ignore whatever that was in the above paragraph. its just me being spolit and stupid and stubborn and wanting to let off some steam.
on an extra note. I am very very amused with the AWARE old guard and new committee issues. They're playing the sexuality and religion card now. I really want to see how that ends in. Are they really the christian homophobes that the papers are making them out to be? judging from the latest article on how this lawyer lady was claiming most of her counselled lesbian clients were of troubled or abused-by-daddy background and want to revolt against society, i am starting to think it(the claims) might be true, cause seriously, i know of lesbians who are obviously NOT abused by daddy. Also, i see nothing wrong with screening homo-themed movies. how would these women survive in jpn? would they faint walking into the doujin section of mandarake?