found.
the following is a found piece of paper in my jumbled up office of writings and rants:
something about the past is always so deceiving. it could be the large smile hiding the misplaced tears; or my minds neurotic impulse to override my instructions and direct it's incoherent thoughts towards the good in a certain individual, rather than the pain he caused. remembrance with a smile seems undeserved - yet i find my subconscious so forgiving. my conscious decision was disdain, my mind drifts between an agreement - or not. in betrayal you saved me from something that should never have begun. "us" as we held hands and would say was rightfully undone. years pass and again my neurons bicker in disagreement: "it was meant to be." plead the the weak
"i'm glad it ended you see," reply the meek.
regardless, things always kill you slower when drifting throughout a sea of lies;
and - ever since we met it seemed i was destined for a swim.
if this awkward memory of mine serves me right in the least,
i somewhat recall how to dog paddle.
something about the past is always so deceiving. it could be the large smile hiding the misplaced tears; or my minds neurotic impulse to override my instructions and direct it's incoherent thoughts towards the good in a certain individual, rather than the pain he caused. remembrance with a smile seems undeserved - yet i find my subconscious so forgiving. my conscious decision was disdain, my mind drifts between an agreement - or not. in betrayal you saved me from something that should never have begun. "us" as we held hands and would say was rightfully undone. years pass and again my neurons bicker in disagreement: "it was meant to be." plead the the weak
"i'm glad it ended you see," reply the meek.
regardless, things always kill you slower when drifting throughout a sea of lies;
and - ever since we met it seemed i was destined for a swim.
if this awkward memory of mine serves me right in the least,
i somewhat recall how to dog paddle.