you're losing your memory now.

[besaidgirl]

sometimes i wonder if
things are just in my mind
or if perhaps
i am not as wrong
as i have lead myself to believe.

people tell me i am strong
but that is one thing
i believe
that i am
not.
i do not think that
i have the strength
i need
to do this.
i do not think that
i have the strength
i need
to do this.
i do not think that
i have the strength
i need
to do this.

there is a tone
and a feeling
behind the words.
i can see the future
and in the future
i have no place.

i feel:
three steps behind.
like an afterthought.
less than what i give.

i am in need of
one.on.one.
and i have no
one or one or one
or one or one or one.

sometimes i worry that
i am setting myself up
for the great
big
painful
diss.uh.point.ment.
alot of times
i know i am.

i am going to
let you
d
o
w
n
.
watch me.

you're losing your memory now.
call all your friends
and tell them im never coming back,
cause this is the end.
pretend that you want it,
dont react.
the damage is done.
the police are coming too slow now.
i would have died.
i would have loved you all my life.
you're losing your memory now.
Where have you gone,
the beach is so cold in winter here.
and where have I gone,
i wake in Montauk with you near.
remember the day,
cause this is what dreams should always be.
i just want to stay,
i just want to keep this dream in me.

you're losing your memory now

wake up, it’s time little girl, wake up.
all the best of what we’ve done is yet to come.
wake up, it’s time little girl, wake up.
just remember who I am in the morning.

you're losing your memory now.

dont worry
its not what you think.
of course
it is, as well.

i need to be touched
i need to be needed
i need to be sought out
i need to be wanted
i need to be woken
i need to be shaken
i need to be broken
i need to be strong
i need to be loved
i need to be gone
i need it now