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[besaidgirl]

i cant help but feel
that i am fading fast.
please live up to the words.

i am a shell.

alone is the worst feeling
on the entire planet.
coupled with a few others
makes for a not so pleasant time.

i just want to rewind.
i just want things back to normal.
i am so sick and tired of
being
let.down.
i am so sick and tired of
hurting.

i cant help but always feel
like i am being replaced
and erased
and that all is lost.

actions speak louder than words
so please start acting.
i need it

i am at a loss.
i dont know where to go
i dont know what to do
because everything that feels better
revolves around you.
but you are too busy
and i tend to feel "expendable".
my mind is my own worst enemy.

every night i pray,
one day i will be heard.
they say god never gives you
more than you can handle,
however, i am thinking this
might be a mistake
on the big man's part.

help like you say.
do what you say.
dont leave me out here
alone.
you promised, remember that.