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[bertuccio]

Fix me to a chain around your neck and wear me like a nickel.
Even new wine served in old skins will cheapen the taste.
I shot the pilot, now I'm begging you to fly this for me.
I'm here for you to use, broken and bruised.
Do you understand?
It's only you, beautiful.
Or don't want anyone.
Brand New "No Seltbelt Song"

Guess what I did tonight?  Defiled

Comments

Re: Affecting other people

[bertuccio]

who cried? Seriously, should I just delete this? Because right now, I'm just getting bad vibes. This wasn't supposed to be depressing or in anyway a plea for help. I mean, thanks for the encouragement, but I wasn't trying to come off sissy. I honestly think everyone, regardless of their mental stability, has nights and probably days when they leave a social situation going "man, I fucked that one up." and probably more often, "man, they fucking suck!" That's all this was about. I wasn't implying childish egocentrism (as defined by Freud, not society), and I difinitely wasn't begging for anything on your part other than maybe recognition of a common emotion (or just thought process?) WE ALL SHARE. My goals, although many and quite varied, have NEVER included relying on others for my own distorted self-perception. I can do that part alone. They have also never included my friends, whose own emotional health I deeply care about, as a crutch. That's what I'm trying to learn. I'm sorry if I am coming off as offended, but I honestly don't want the concern when I'm doing fine. Life glitches, ok, it's imperfect, and my expectations of it need to reflect that. Too many times I have been advised to try to fix it, but I'm realizing you just fucking CAN'T. Mental health is not about removing these little problems, but recognizing them for what they are. THAT is the point of this entry. And that is all you should take from it.
"Because in the end, every night is a good night. And every moment is beautiful, even when they're painful. "Love, live, burn, die" right?"