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Before I met M.K. I never had a problem trusting anyone. Now I have the biggest trust issues in the world and I HATE IT. I'm making myself miserable cause i'm convinced everyone is out to get me. And i'm driving Brandon nuts cause he thinks I don't trust him. I do..I really do. But theres always that voice in my head that tells me not to be so dumb and blind to things. I'm pushing him away with all the shit I pull. Honestly I don't know how he's stayed with me for this long. But I love him for that. He makes me so rediculously happy. So why would I want to even try and fuck that up?? Roar. I need to get myself in check and start changing things or i'm going to lose the best thing that's ever happend to me.
I'm feeling so shitty right now and I hate it. I dunno what's wrong with me. I've been dizzy for a week or two..And now i'm having these intense stomach pains. Im just a mess.
Tomorrow i'm going to Erie to see my lovely niece HALEY. Gosh I love her shes so cute.
&& thats about it..