Flashbacks

Mar 18, 2009 14:12

Last night proved to be very interesting, I got a call from an old friend. She is one of those friends who I used to spend alot of time with, but me living 300 miles away now and years passing have ways of changing those things. Other stuff got in the way of that relationship too but we'll get into that later. In any case, this was a good friend who was now just someone who I would phone chat with a few times a year.

I can't go into all the details because they are super personal, but she was a part of a section of my life which ended badly. This was a place/circumstance that was part of my life for 6 years. It shaped who I was growing up and I put me on various paths that had I not gone on, my life would not even be recognizable today (where I live, where I work).

But it ended badly. People betrayed. Deep betrayals that go as deep as betrayals go. Nothing was ever (and could ever be) the same again. Not just a betrayal towards me, but my whole family. From the very people we loved the most.

The call from that person from a gone (but not forgotten) part of my life brought flashbacks. Many flashbacks. Unresolved issues. Unresolved anger. Most of it went down in 2005 and I look back at that year as one of the most negative ones of my life (2007 is a close second).

I feel like calling certain people. Letting it out. Saying what wasn't said years ago. But that may just make things worse. I don't know.
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