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I am really lonely...and i know i know...you dont have to have a boyfriend to be happy...but I DO! its like this feeling of warmth and security...like everything is right in the world. its how i feel beautiful...and wanted in the world. Having someone hold me tight and kiss me...I've never had that b4. i have always dreamed about walking down the halls with someone...hand in hand...or like holding on to eachother sooo tight that you don't want to let go for even a second...i have always...ALWAYS wanted that...that person that secretly holds ur hand underneath the desk top...and kisses u when you r in a bad mood to make you feel better...and when you think u look like crap...he is there telling you that u r beautiful...and proving it w/ a juicy makeout session in the middle of the hallway...(yea TOTALLY just lost the romance there)i want...no wait I NEED! someone that is going to love me for me! call me whenever he is thinking about me...but not TOO possessive....i dont want to have to mention any names here! y cant guys be like that? why cant they put their hearts out on the line like girls do? it just kills me sooo much to know that the person i have feelings for doesnt feel the same way...and that even if he did....i dont even know if he would be that guy that i dream about...not the physical stuff...like the six pack...and the height...but the stuff that comes from the heart like holding hands...and making u think ur beautiful....that is wat i really want...i just want to be loved by someone that i love back and makes me smile whenever i see him...that is all i want right now...to feel special to someone. kk bye now!
~Courtney
~Courtney