To be or not to be...
...in band...
Once again, shafted because some other jealous egocentric saxophone wanted to stay in the spotlight. Perfect. Now he has 3 solos, and I get 1 with a vocal piece.
It's not that I'm saying he doesn't deserve to be praised, but why do I deserve to be shafted? Why does it have to be me that gives it up, and not anyone else in the band that doesn't even show up? I've been to every rehearsal I can, I've played my parts perfectly.
It always has to be competition. FUCKING COMPETITION! How can I win in something like that? His mother's the finance manager of the band, and he's a fucking jealous prick. Serious in music? Yeah so am I, but I'm not dumb enough to risk getting a Bachelor of Arts instead.
I don't wanna be involved in the politics of it anymore. This happened last year too, when I ran out of the performance crying because she fucking decided that there was enough time to play his feature piece and not mine. Beautiful.
It's not worth it anymore, I'd rather just stay home. Why bother with it? I'm obviously expendable enough to get shafted.
Once again, shafted because some other jealous egocentric saxophone wanted to stay in the spotlight. Perfect. Now he has 3 solos, and I get 1 with a vocal piece.
It's not that I'm saying he doesn't deserve to be praised, but why do I deserve to be shafted? Why does it have to be me that gives it up, and not anyone else in the band that doesn't even show up? I've been to every rehearsal I can, I've played my parts perfectly.
It always has to be competition. FUCKING COMPETITION! How can I win in something like that? His mother's the finance manager of the band, and he's a fucking jealous prick. Serious in music? Yeah so am I, but I'm not dumb enough to risk getting a Bachelor of Arts instead.
I don't wanna be involved in the politics of it anymore. This happened last year too, when I ran out of the performance crying because she fucking decided that there was enough time to play his feature piece and not mine. Beautiful.
It's not worth it anymore, I'd rather just stay home. Why bother with it? I'm obviously expendable enough to get shafted.