Run to You
I wrote this poem on September 15th, 2002. Whosah wanted to read it, and that requires typing. So:
Run
Run
Can we run?
I want to run away from everything, you know
And it made me happy, you know
To find out I had an excuse not be close to you
And it made me sad, you know
When I realized it was me stopping me
From falling in love with you
And I thought that was the end, you know
Silly me
I thought it would stay that way
Us each inside of ourselves
Safety tinged with regret
But then you went and said
That you would try if I did
And I wanted to run away from what I wanted
And my world fell as nothing changed
Sitting on the doorstep, 300 years solid
Night black out there, and I could
Let thoughtless adrenaline take over
But no, I let myself realize
That any excuse I made was a flimsy one
And so, you know, you kept me with nothing but the truth
Feel afraid; I'll fight
Even knowing that I don't want it to be this way
Then you have to come, ruin everything
Make everything right
Reach out a hand, and I let the scared-ness come
As the real trouble blew away
Because of you
And I was scared, because this possibility was what I wanted
So I sat there next to you,
Knowing if I jumped up and ran night and made it easier
It would all be gone and I wouldn't have to deal with anything
And I'd never stop regretting it
So I told you I was scared
And I knew I would try
And I knew that it would change everything
And everything changed
****the end****
I was actually really conscious that if I didn't make the decision to talk, then things would just be stagnant, and if I did, then things would change. I didn't know how they would change at the time though, just that it would be important and special.
Run
Run
Can we run?
I want to run away from everything, you know
And it made me happy, you know
To find out I had an excuse not be close to you
And it made me sad, you know
When I realized it was me stopping me
From falling in love with you
And I thought that was the end, you know
Silly me
I thought it would stay that way
Us each inside of ourselves
Safety tinged with regret
But then you went and said
That you would try if I did
And I wanted to run away from what I wanted
And my world fell as nothing changed
Sitting on the doorstep, 300 years solid
Night black out there, and I could
Let thoughtless adrenaline take over
But no, I let myself realize
That any excuse I made was a flimsy one
And so, you know, you kept me with nothing but the truth
Feel afraid; I'll fight
Even knowing that I don't want it to be this way
Then you have to come, ruin everything
Make everything right
Reach out a hand, and I let the scared-ness come
As the real trouble blew away
Because of you
And I was scared, because this possibility was what I wanted
So I sat there next to you,
Knowing if I jumped up and ran night and made it easier
It would all be gone and I wouldn't have to deal with anything
And I'd never stop regretting it
So I told you I was scared
And I knew I would try
And I knew that it would change everything
And everything changed
****the end****
I was actually really conscious that if I didn't make the decision to talk, then things would just be stagnant, and if I did, then things would change. I didn't know how they would change at the time though, just that it would be important and special.