Remember me?
One of my main New Year's resolutions was to update my livejournal more. Clearly, that's not off to a good start, but I'm going to try and improve on it! So, speaking of New Year's resolutions, I never posted mine, so here they are:
1. Update LJ more
2. Read 50 books. I've tried and failed for the past two years, and this year will be the year.
3. Lose 20 more pounds.
4. Achieve grades and an academic experience that I can be proud, instead of ashamed, of.
5. Try to keep my room clean.
I might think of more and add them, we'll see.
So, it's time for a life update. Things this month have been kind of meh, and not in the sense that anything bad has been happening, but in the sense that I've just had that overall "meh" feeling. I'm not really motivated for anything (hence the lack of LJ updates). It's been good to get a break from school, but right now I still don't want to go back. Well, that's not completely true. I do want to go back to Smith, but only because I want to see my friends. I have no desire at all to go back to *school* as in classes. I don't even know what classes I'm taking yet. It just hasn't hit me that I'm going back soon (actually I don't know when I'm going back either). I'm just not ready to do it all again. I'm feeling kind of apathetic overall. Hopefully that will change in the next week.
One thing that I have been motivated to do this vacation is work. A lot. This week I don't have very many shifts because Newington closed and we have a lot of transfer employees (I amuse myself by thinking of it as a Stamford/Scranton situation) but in the weeks preceding, I'd have my own schedule and then pick up shift after shift for someone else. A typical day for me consisted of a scheduled late host shift (4 or 5 till 11) and a picked up server lunch, so I'd be there from 10:30 AM until sometime between 9:30 and 11:00 PM. Not every single day was like that, but a lot of them were. I'd be scheduled for a day off and end up working 10 hours of picked up shifts instead. I'd wake up every morning and my feet and back would hurt so much at first that I'd hate just going upstairs for breakfast. This week feels like a vacation!
I wonder why I do that, work that much, because I really don't have to. I have to work the 30-ish (give or take) hours that I'm actually scheduled for each week, but beyond that, I'm free to say no whenever anybody asks me to pick up another shift. But I don't, in fact, I say yes so much that the managers usually have to tell me "no more" towards the end of the week. Why? The money is definitely part of it, and it's usually the reason I give when people ask. And it's true that I need to save as much as possible for the semester, but I don't think that's all there is to it. I like to do favors for people, and so when someone comes to me with a really valid reason for needing the shift off, or needing me to stay late, or whatnot, I usually sympathize and want to take it off their hands. That's a part of it, too. I don't know, though. Maybe it's just a sense of wanting to be *doing* something all the time instead of just sitting around at home, which I can definitely see, but if that's the case, then what about my contrasting behavior during the school year? It just doesn't make sense. Even now I'm hoping that my phone rings by 5 with someone wanting the night off.
American Idol has started, and I had two fun nights of watching it- the first night with Nolan, Chelsey, and Nolan's boyfriend Matthew, and then last night I was supposed to work, got called out because it was dead, and ended up going to Concord to visit with Kristen and watch it. It was great to see her, and I'm so glad I got to before the end of break.
As for Idol itself, my early favorite is Rudy. I don't tend to write a lot about the audition episodes, I get more into the analysis and stuff around Hollywood week, but I'll try a little up till then. So yes, Rudy is my favorite, as he was talking to the judges last night I was like, "I like him. He had better be good. He's going to be my guy this year." So yes. I also enjoy the girl who sang Shakira the first night. And... yeah, audition episodes aren't really my thing other than the "YAY IDOL IS BACK!!" part. I love Hollywood though, so I can't wait for that! This puts me in the mood for a poll.
Poll Favorite Idol phases
1. Update LJ more
2. Read 50 books. I've tried and failed for the past two years, and this year will be the year.
3. Lose 20 more pounds.
4. Achieve grades and an academic experience that I can be proud, instead of ashamed, of.
5. Try to keep my room clean.
I might think of more and add them, we'll see.
So, it's time for a life update. Things this month have been kind of meh, and not in the sense that anything bad has been happening, but in the sense that I've just had that overall "meh" feeling. I'm not really motivated for anything (hence the lack of LJ updates). It's been good to get a break from school, but right now I still don't want to go back. Well, that's not completely true. I do want to go back to Smith, but only because I want to see my friends. I have no desire at all to go back to *school* as in classes. I don't even know what classes I'm taking yet. It just hasn't hit me that I'm going back soon (actually I don't know when I'm going back either). I'm just not ready to do it all again. I'm feeling kind of apathetic overall. Hopefully that will change in the next week.
One thing that I have been motivated to do this vacation is work. A lot. This week I don't have very many shifts because Newington closed and we have a lot of transfer employees (I amuse myself by thinking of it as a Stamford/Scranton situation) but in the weeks preceding, I'd have my own schedule and then pick up shift after shift for someone else. A typical day for me consisted of a scheduled late host shift (4 or 5 till 11) and a picked up server lunch, so I'd be there from 10:30 AM until sometime between 9:30 and 11:00 PM. Not every single day was like that, but a lot of them were. I'd be scheduled for a day off and end up working 10 hours of picked up shifts instead. I'd wake up every morning and my feet and back would hurt so much at first that I'd hate just going upstairs for breakfast. This week feels like a vacation!
I wonder why I do that, work that much, because I really don't have to. I have to work the 30-ish (give or take) hours that I'm actually scheduled for each week, but beyond that, I'm free to say no whenever anybody asks me to pick up another shift. But I don't, in fact, I say yes so much that the managers usually have to tell me "no more" towards the end of the week. Why? The money is definitely part of it, and it's usually the reason I give when people ask. And it's true that I need to save as much as possible for the semester, but I don't think that's all there is to it. I like to do favors for people, and so when someone comes to me with a really valid reason for needing the shift off, or needing me to stay late, or whatnot, I usually sympathize and want to take it off their hands. That's a part of it, too. I don't know, though. Maybe it's just a sense of wanting to be *doing* something all the time instead of just sitting around at home, which I can definitely see, but if that's the case, then what about my contrasting behavior during the school year? It just doesn't make sense. Even now I'm hoping that my phone rings by 5 with someone wanting the night off.
American Idol has started, and I had two fun nights of watching it- the first night with Nolan, Chelsey, and Nolan's boyfriend Matthew, and then last night I was supposed to work, got called out because it was dead, and ended up going to Concord to visit with Kristen and watch it. It was great to see her, and I'm so glad I got to before the end of break.
As for Idol itself, my early favorite is Rudy. I don't tend to write a lot about the audition episodes, I get more into the analysis and stuff around Hollywood week, but I'll try a little up till then. So yes, Rudy is my favorite, as he was talking to the judges last night I was like, "I like him. He had better be good. He's going to be my guy this year." So yes. I also enjoy the girl who sang Shakira the first night. And... yeah, audition episodes aren't really my thing other than the "YAY IDOL IS BACK!!" part. I love Hollywood though, so I can't wait for that! This puts me in the mood for a poll.
Poll Favorite Idol phases