WEIRD TIMES MAN!!!!!
on an entirely different note: I FUCKING HATE SONGS THAT ARE EDITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! obnoxious shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway on to the real story!
OK, so i don't know how i really feel about everything but all i gotta say right now is that people are fucking STRANGE, specifically guys! And i just kinda need to talk about it cuz it'd weirding me out the more i think about it. ugh jajlkfjlkajfifijoif werid feelings.
SO i went to hang out with my friends Anissa and Vanessa at Vanessa's house last night! we went swimming with Christina, Vanessa's sister, as well and then came back to the house after awhile and were gonna make food and i don't know watch some movies or some shit. However, Christina decided to go to a party with her friends after prom ya know, and at first we weren't gonna spend the night at Vanessa's, just hang out for a while, but then we decided to stay and i thought Anissa was too but apparently not. Well we started to make the food and it was weird chicken paramsean with cheese inside and it took forever but it was fucking great cuz i was so fucking hungry by the time it was ready cuz i hadn't eaten since breakfast or something, and then we started to watch Fast Times At Ridgemont High cuz i'd never seen it before and it was annoying. I really can't remember if we finished it or not, so if someone's seen it what was the ending? Anyways, Anissa left like towards the end of the movie, and it ended up just being me, Vanessa, and her brother passed out on the floor. Well then we started to watch Clerks II and Vanessa's brother, Micheal, started to wake up slightly during Fast Times At Ridgemont High, and then fully for Clerks II. By the way, i'd never met her brother before and we never really introduced ourselves to each other either so yea.....anyways, we started watching Clerks II which is pretty fucking funny, i truly liked it, and i think Vanessa fell asleep during it cuz she was tired. Anyways, when that was over he picked out a "funny" movie which to him was Longest Yard, not Clerks II but whatever lol, and we started to watch that. Vanessa slightly woke up sporadically and then would go make to sleep after mumbling shit, funny, and so it was pretty much just me and Micheal watching the movie, Vanessa's mom had already gone to sleep and Christina wasn't planning on coming back home. So it started to get towards the end of the movie, which was the part i'd seen a shit ton of times so i was kinda bored. And then all of the sudden, Micheal takes my hand and we go into Vanessa's room, and i heard him say something about playing some game cuz he hit the gamecube controller and said, "do you wanna play bladhdit (didn't hear really what he said)" so i said, "uuhhh sure" cuz i was bored, it was like 4 am, and what else was there to do anyways? What i got next made me wanna just disappear, cuz i'd never felt so FUCKING AWKWARD IN MY LIFE. asdfjlkaj Anyways, so he just kinda pulled me towards him and tried to kiss me, and like no i don't do those things (the whole never had a boyfriend and shit thing), and i moved my head slightly and he like got half of my lips. But he didn't stop he just kept trying and then he started to kiss my neck, and then he tried to kiss me again and we were kinda backing into a wall, and i pulled away and was like , "ummmm, i gonna go watch the rest of the movie now (insert nervous laugh here)" and left. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he just said ok and then i walked back and then he did and went back to laying down like nothing happened and hey i just let it go cuz what the fuck else was i supposed to do??
So yea that's what happened and i just don't understand! also i'm very disappointed to find out there were no fireworks and magic feelings with a kiss, it was just straight up AWKWARD! i just wanted to leave the whole time. ugh WHO DOES THAT? nasty! By the way, Micheal isn't an ugly guy, he pretty cute actually, it's just like NO, you don't do that. at least i don't just do that so lightly it's supposed to actually mean something. maybe i'm just a romantic, but ya know i wanna know the person's name at the very FUCKING LEAST, preferably know them well and are friends first. i don't know it's cool in a way that hey i know how to say no, which is AWESOME, and i can let things go enough to not make it horribly awkward! but ya know what i wanna know, is WHY? like does he do it with all of Vanessa's friends or what? and like i wonder what would have happened if Anissa had stayed, or if she had stayed and i had left. I totally think that Anissa would've screamed and like slapped him so hard! lol well yea i don't know just had to get that off my chest! been bothering me, and thankfully i do feel a lot better.
OK, so i don't know how i really feel about everything but all i gotta say right now is that people are fucking STRANGE, specifically guys! And i just kinda need to talk about it cuz it'd weirding me out the more i think about it. ugh jajlkfjlkajfifijoif werid feelings.
SO i went to hang out with my friends Anissa and Vanessa at Vanessa's house last night! we went swimming with Christina, Vanessa's sister, as well and then came back to the house after awhile and were gonna make food and i don't know watch some movies or some shit. However, Christina decided to go to a party with her friends after prom ya know, and at first we weren't gonna spend the night at Vanessa's, just hang out for a while, but then we decided to stay and i thought Anissa was too but apparently not. Well we started to make the food and it was weird chicken paramsean with cheese inside and it took forever but it was fucking great cuz i was so fucking hungry by the time it was ready cuz i hadn't eaten since breakfast or something, and then we started to watch Fast Times At Ridgemont High cuz i'd never seen it before and it was annoying. I really can't remember if we finished it or not, so if someone's seen it what was the ending? Anyways, Anissa left like towards the end of the movie, and it ended up just being me, Vanessa, and her brother passed out on the floor. Well then we started to watch Clerks II and Vanessa's brother, Micheal, started to wake up slightly during Fast Times At Ridgemont High, and then fully for Clerks II. By the way, i'd never met her brother before and we never really introduced ourselves to each other either so yea.....anyways, we started watching Clerks II which is pretty fucking funny, i truly liked it, and i think Vanessa fell asleep during it cuz she was tired. Anyways, when that was over he picked out a "funny" movie which to him was Longest Yard, not Clerks II but whatever lol, and we started to watch that. Vanessa slightly woke up sporadically and then would go make to sleep after mumbling shit, funny, and so it was pretty much just me and Micheal watching the movie, Vanessa's mom had already gone to sleep and Christina wasn't planning on coming back home. So it started to get towards the end of the movie, which was the part i'd seen a shit ton of times so i was kinda bored. And then all of the sudden, Micheal takes my hand and we go into Vanessa's room, and i heard him say something about playing some game cuz he hit the gamecube controller and said, "do you wanna play bladhdit (didn't hear really what he said)" so i said, "uuhhh sure" cuz i was bored, it was like 4 am, and what else was there to do anyways? What i got next made me wanna just disappear, cuz i'd never felt so FUCKING AWKWARD IN MY LIFE. asdfjlkaj Anyways, so he just kinda pulled me towards him and tried to kiss me, and like no i don't do those things (the whole never had a boyfriend and shit thing), and i moved my head slightly and he like got half of my lips. But he didn't stop he just kept trying and then he started to kiss my neck, and then he tried to kiss me again and we were kinda backing into a wall, and i pulled away and was like , "ummmm, i gonna go watch the rest of the movie now (insert nervous laugh here)" and left. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he just said ok and then i walked back and then he did and went back to laying down like nothing happened and hey i just let it go cuz what the fuck else was i supposed to do??
So yea that's what happened and i just don't understand! also i'm very disappointed to find out there were no fireworks and magic feelings with a kiss, it was just straight up AWKWARD! i just wanted to leave the whole time. ugh WHO DOES THAT? nasty! By the way, Micheal isn't an ugly guy, he pretty cute actually, it's just like NO, you don't do that. at least i don't just do that so lightly it's supposed to actually mean something. maybe i'm just a romantic, but ya know i wanna know the person's name at the very FUCKING LEAST, preferably know them well and are friends first. i don't know it's cool in a way that hey i know how to say no, which is AWESOME, and i can let things go enough to not make it horribly awkward! but ya know what i wanna know, is WHY? like does he do it with all of Vanessa's friends or what? and like i wonder what would have happened if Anissa had stayed, or if she had stayed and i had left. I totally think that Anissa would've screamed and like slapped him so hard! lol well yea i don't know just had to get that off my chest! been bothering me, and thankfully i do feel a lot better.