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Ok livejournal, it's time to really talk. I'm scared out of my fucking mind to go to college. I'm excited and all that, but absolutely everything is changing. Everyone is gone now...either moved away or has started classes. So I'm sitting here...anticipating the end of the week. I'm not sure if I can do all this. I know I can, but I don't know if I want to change my whole life around. Yet I am powerless to stop anything that is going to happen. Everyone says make the best of it, and that's what I'm going to try to do, but still. My lil group that I became so comfortable with will probably never be completely whole again. And not till, December? I love my friends, and I miss them already. I have to start from scratch from the friends department now...never fun. Plus the guys moved out of Hackensack last night. Mike and Rob will still be around, but Justin is up in West Milford now, so I'll never see him. I know that I'll be home a lot, because I'm working every Thursday, and every other Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I'm going to miss Mark. I'm probably going to miss him the most. Seeing him everyday for like the past year made me kinda used to him. Cause no matter what is happening or going wrong, he can always make me smile. I'm gonna miss my Squishy so much ::sigh:: It doesn't help my thought process any that Marge was there at Rutgers for about 6 hours and she already wanted to move back. That made me nervous. I've barely begun to pack and I'm moving on Friday. My accident report from my car (it got hit by a tractor trailer) still isn't ready. Gonna try again this morning. I miss Juls. I miss Eddie. I can't find Magda. I'm sad.